Did You Really Know Me?

When you were sick

With cancer

And going through

Treatments

I was beyond scared.

To your face

I smiled.

We celebrated

When radiation

And chemo

Were done.

A year passed

We celebrated!!

Still cancer free!

But there was a distance,

Quietly, I felt it form.

It was then

YOU decided,

As you often did,

Though usually

You just disappeared

Without a warning.

For days, for weeks

To do your thing.

Sometimes you’d

Climb in a bottle.

Now you’re sober

Over a year.

Sometimes you were

Depressed.

And needed time

To work it through,

Yourself.

This time it was different.

You told me

With your type of cancer

The odds were

Within ten years

You’d be gone.

So you wanted

To do your own thing.

I laughed…

Because I couldn’t

Recall a time

When you weren’t

Doing your own thing.

When YOU wanted.

And now your gone.

It’s rather like

You’ve passed on.

Sadly, madly,

Because of experience

I know the difference.

I can’t find comfort

In looking up

And talking to you.

Knowing

My best friend,

Who I shared hopes

And dreams,

Silliness and

Plaza ice creams,

Is out there.

I don’t think

You realize

It’s not that

I don’t understand

Nor might not want

The same, myself.

It’s all these years

Not once.

Not Even ONCE!

Did you ever

Take the time

To listen.

I asked for one thing.

Just ONE thing.

Not money,

Not the errands

Not the dinners

You cooked

So wonderfully.

I asked for your

Arms around me,

When I fell asleep

At night.

That’s ALL I ever wanted.

You freely offered

Everything you

“Thought” I needed.

I AM extremely grateful.

So many women

Want so much.

Materialistic things,

New cars

A man to pay their bills,

Etc.

Where as I

Being an independent

Spirit myself,

Understand

The need for freedom.

If you look back

You might recall

What were the

Times

Insomnia didn’t

Bother me at all?

Sadly, I wonder

Did you ever

Really know me?

For I knew you.

“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

❤️

Kind Regards

And doing the work – K

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