Dealing with changes is challenging no matter what your age.
At 56 after waiting 8 very long years for my son, a vet and I, to find a middle ground, I decided to make that move from NH to NC.
Sadly/gladly, thanks to my daughter, the day we packed the truck for the move, I saw my son for the first time in two years.
He stated, you’ve never came to visit me. Interesting statement considering I had been told his home was off limits.
Trying for a mom hug, the response? “You start any shit and I’ll get in my truck and leave.”
Painful? Hell yes!
Am I still sad? Definitely!
Can I continue to keep my life on hold? No!
He’s angry about life.
I’ve researched, tried at least 20 plus ways to approach him.
It doesn’t work!
I’ve been in NC, barely a week and now I’m getting angry texts. Some random subjects that make zero sense, others make sense but, why now?
He just threatened me with not being in my life if I don’t give a particular item of mine, that I had planned on giving him.
He would have had it the day I moved. Unfortunately in texting with him a few days earlier he informed me he wasn’t going to be there, so I packed it.
Three guesses which box? Honestly, I don’t know.
My dad was a correctional officer in the 1940-50’s. I have his badge. My son followed a similar route, not the same state. Yes, it would be awesome for him to have it.
But he’s accusing me of hiding it from him. Sigh.
So after numerous ugly texts that started last night. Then continued into today.
I blocked him.
Then got physically ill.
He text me a different way.
“You blocked me?”
I didn’t answer.
I’m out of answers.
My son always says-
A MOTHER NEVER GIVES UP!
I JUST PUT MYSELF IN TIMEOUT!
“It’s okay to be scared, but you have to get out there, open up, love, make mistakes, learn, be stronger, and start all over again. -Unknown
Kind Regards and
Moving forward- K
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