Don’t like it? Change it! 4.2.2019

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Happy Tuesday morning!

How is everyone doing?

 

As most of you know, I am on the the second to last leg of withdrawing off prescription Xanax. Not due to abuse, but due to moving to a new state and struggling to find a doctor that will continue the same anxiety regimen I have been on for the last 20 years.

My next doctors visit will be April 10th and I only have .75 of Lorazepam to go. My current drop has been 1.50 broken into 2 weeks drop of .75 each.

It has not been a fun one. Good ol’ anxiety has reared it’s head. Not an old friend I am welcoming with open arms. Grrrr!

I was chatting with my daughter on the phone yesterday, complaining about the current state of anxiousness. She said, “Good! Don’t like it, this is a chance for you to change it.”

At first I was a bit taken aback.

Then the more I thought about it. I realized, SHE WAS RIGHT!

I was NOT going to allow this anxiety to get the best of me! This was not a new path. The battle of wits between this old enemy of mine has been going on and off for years. I was NOT going to lay down and take it!

Realistically, I was smart enough to know that I needed a good nights rest, and it would be good to hit it head on in the morning. I watched some television and headed to bed.

I arose this morning, took a shower. The whole time practicing positive self talk. Along with my self talk, I envisioned a positive outcome. This was something I learned and practiced a long time ago.

I thought, why not give it a try, again?

Today’s battle? To be able to drive to the grocery store!

It may not sound like a big deal, but, anxiety can be a sneaky bugger and talk you out of all kinds of things. Especially, when you have to go a few weeks not driving due to withdrawals.

The outcome?

Winner, winner, chicken, dinner! I just arrived home, with a few groceries.

 

#winning!

Remember to always celebrate the seemingly little things! You deserve it!

Kind Regards and hugs – K

 

PS- A shout out thank you goes to my daughter! I love it when she pushes me! Love you honey! xxooxxoo

 

12 thoughts on “Don’t like it? Change it! 4.2.2019

  1. Big win for you. I’ve been where you are. Stick with it. Allow yourself your feelings. Like an annoying new friend they may torment you for a little while, but they won’t kill you. Eventually you may learn to trust them. Hooray for your daughter and for you! πŸ‘πŸ‘

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