Healthy is GREAT! But…. A Challenge to My Health Conscious Friends 2.13.2019

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Live healthy!! Eat right!

Exercise!!

This supplement helps with this and that and also gives a boost to, etc…

Take this med to help with your anxiety… GREAT! NOT!!

These days, so many individuals are suffering from high blood pressure! Almost every

healthy supplement states- will help lower your blood pressure.

Fantastic, RIGHT?

WRONG!

There are some of us who have a naturally low blood pressure.

Mine happens to be around 90/60!

If I lower it anymore, I’ll be on the floor!  ha!

My standard heart rate equals 57. Not too bad, eh?

 

Walking around in a dazed, weakened stupor is not only dangerous

but DEFINITELY NOT FUN!

Interestingly enough, as most of my friends are being told to watch their salt intake,

I have instructions to increase mine. Hey! What can I say? SORRY!

Much like my dad, I have always been a pepper lover!! If it’s not covered in black,

delectable, coarse speckles, it needs more!  😉

 

Yesterday, for Valentine’s day and my 57th (eek!) birthday, I had a scheduled primary care visit.

**He is literally taking me off my 12 year anti-anxiety regiment of  1.5 xanax in am, .5- 2 hours later, .5- 2 hours later and .5 at bedtime- cold turkey and switching me to 1mg of lorazepam twice per day, and upping my 25 mg Topiramate to twice per day. 

I checked with the local pharmacist. She is not impressed that he is having me quit xanax cold turkey, but said is should not be life threatening. GOOD NEWS!

Unfortunately, I will be experiencing withdrawals. OH SHUCKS!

I am researching, things to have on hand for healthy cleansing/nutritious smoothies, hydration and whatever else I can find.

 

Here is THE CHALLENGE for all my

HEALTH CONSCIOUS friends out there:

Find me some healthy lifestyle foods and smoothies,

that will “NOT DECREASE” my blood pressure, 

PLUS

 Any HELPFUL TIPS you can give me, to get through this transition

will be way beyond appreciated. (I am literally scared sh*tless)

 

Anxiously, awaiting your comments!!

 

Kind Regards and Happy Friday- K

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Place for Everything 2.3.2019

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Moving?

Leave the negative dirt and dust behind.

Rule of thumb:  New place/home, once you arrive, purchase a new dust pan, broom and vacuum cleaner.

Excellent concept!

That is exactly what I did. Now that I am in North Carolina I have purchased  a bright red broom and dustpan, the  vacuum is a purple upright, bagless Hoover.

Bright vibrant colors for a fresh start!

 

A place for everything and everything in it’s place. Who said that?

 

As I open my moving boxes, each piece of  memorabilia is cleansed  with clorox wipes.  Each piece of  clothing and bedding is either tossed or freshly washed.  This should remove any negativity from the past.

A slow process, but definitely worth it.

NOW the difficult part. Where should each precious item go?

The newest trend is to be a minimalist. That is a fantastic thought. For me, there are some things that cannot be replaced. My antique saws and antique tools from my older brother.

The memory of my pond  in the garden out front. I brought these frogs, to always carry a piece of that pond with me.

froggies from the pond garden at home

Going through the totes of a large variety of items, I realize that some will have a place others will not.

Setting up your new place:

When someone walks through your front door… what will they see? When you walk through the door what says “HOME” to you?

Well I am off to play with some antique washboards and other beloved treasures.

 

Enjoy your day.

Here in North Carolina the sun is shining on Superbowl Sunday!!

 

 

Love and hugs to all.

Kind Regards – K

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Own the Day! 1.31.2019

 

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Good morning all. 

 19 degrees here in North Carolina! We are extremely lucky considering other parts of the country are experiencing sub-zero temps. 

I wanted to share a little something I wrote a few weeks ago. When you endure days with anxiety, panic and depression, you often have to reach deep to find your strength.

Writing brings my inner strength to the forefront of my mind and helps me  grab onto the life I deserve! Putting my thoughts on paper, re-enforces the positive and gives me a little extra push, for my continuous journey forward.

Part of #winning is learning what it takes to be your own cheerleader!

 

Own the Day

‘Own the day or the day could own you.’- Kallie Knight

She was back! The drug, the doctor had prescribed day before yesterday, had taken her to a euphoria buzz, onto fog brain, then about 12 hours later, weakness, severe headache, heart palpitations accompanied by a sore throat.

Thursday had been a waste.  She couldn’t sleep. She couldn’t think clearly enough to perform the simple task of washing the dishes.

Damn doctors, she thought. Why can’t they listen? She had told her new primary care physician, that anything he prescribed needed to be the lowest dose then divided by half.  Thank heavens she had taken half a pill, 10 mg of the 20 mg prescription.

The drug? ESCITLOPRAM. It was supposed to enhance her mood, work with her current depression med. Now, she knew, when and IF she attempted it again, she was would only take 5mg.

Right now, she had responsibilities. Her dogs, prepping to finally, after a month and a half of living in an interim place, to MOVE! A REAL apartment!  The place she would call home.

K smiled as she  looked forward to hanging her hat!

YES! Today she would start to move a few things.  Luckily, her daughter who currently lived there, had the second bathroom cleaned out. Today, she would pick the items that could fit into that room. Only, fifteen minutes away from her current location it was like the difference from night and day.

Troutman, NC was a slice of heaven! Acres of fields, open space with the bonus of horses and cows, down the road. It was the one place, her whole being felt at home.

 

 

FINALLY, she felt HOPEFUL!

Doing the best one can, under any circumstance is what earns a person the title of survivor.

Feeling intense relief, she sipped her morning coffee, and felt exhilarated!

She KNEW-

TODAY, SHE OWNED THE DAY!

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Compliments of Zen to Zany!!

 

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

1.29.19 AHHH WIFI AND LIFE! (2 min read)

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HELLO EVERYONE!

Finally, I am back!

So much has happened, I will attempt to give you the Reader’s Digest version:

First of all I would like to say, I have missed every single one of you. Sounds crazy, but I love being a part of the blogging family!  Sending out warm wishes and K hugs all around!!  🙂

I am finally  moved into my new apartment! Thank you very much to my daughter, her new hubby and brothers! Happy dance going on here!!

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Back in the country again! Yes! Troutman, NC is a little bit country.

When I walk the dogs early in the morning, I can hear the cows mooing down the street!

Abby and Chief, feel quite at home! Lot’s of grass, space and a whole lot of new smells. What more could a beloved fur child ask for?

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These last few days have been  frustrating, eye-opening and a celebratory time.

Celebration: Moved and a whole bedroom of boxes to explore! Wifi is back! We feel extremely at home in our new place. One neighbor even brought me some of his specialty chicken as a welcome to the neighborhood! Too cool!

My grandaughter started a new Christian private school yesterday! A glorious opportunity for her to receive a wonderful education!

Eye opening:  I have a new primary physician! He was very intelligent and I loved the overall feel of the office. They called me “Miss K”.

I got my overdue eye exam done. New glasses on the way!

One downside, I have the beginning stages of cataracts! A bit of a scare for me.  Macular degeneration is hereditary, and when my grandmother, soon after retirement had one of hers removed, she lost her sight in that eye. With an inoperable cataract in the other eye eventually she became legally blind. Something, I have had a subconscious fear of for over twenty years.

Frustration: I have one daily medication that I take, that I am having a difficult time finding a doctor to prescribe. It is not controlled in North Carolina as it was up North. The frustrating aspect- I have to somehow prove I am not a drug addict! Guilty until you prove yourself innocent. To prove one’s innocence you have to get an appointment.  That is the challenge! No one will let me in the door so that I can do so. I will NOT give up, I cant! But definitely a PIA!!

#Winning: I AM HERE! 

I am getting settled!

My dreams are coming true.

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Blue skies babee!!

A click from my walk at the new place the other night!

red sky sunset with copyright from my second day here!!

 

“With confidence you have won even before you have started.” – Marcus Garvey

Since I have arrived at this part of my life journey, I have proven, once again, push on through your panic and you can live the life you deserve!!

Just close your eyes and DO IT!

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

 

 

 

#Winning 1.17.2019

New in town and still learning my way around as I Prep for a very special
Wedding.

YES!! My daughter is getting married this Sunday!

 

I know that it is in my best interest to assure the “Bride to be” is pleased, with the “Mother of the bride’s outfit”!!

 

Yesterday, I tried on a variety of outfits, took photos and sent them to my daughter.

 

Fifteen plus clicks and at least 8 outfits later, we had it narrowed down to black dress slacks, knee length, Olive green sweater, that I can wear with my black ankle boots or a lovely, calf length black dress.

YES! Black, NO LONGER TABOO, can be a very classy look at weddings.   I tried pairing mine with a variety of colored lightweight, waist length, long sleeved, cardigans and colorful scarves.

This event is casual, so I need to be careful not to overdress!

I am no Fashionista, but love that by simply changing your scarf, one can change the overall look and feel of an outfit.

 

This one, I captioned: “Stephen Tyler” wants his scarf back. 😊

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In the middle of the clicks I sent this one to daughter, how could I resist? tee hee!

 

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One hurdle to go!

Now, to find a place to get my hair done.

Remember, I am the “new kid” in town, so I asked some of the cashiers at the local Food Lion, grocery store in Statesville.  SUPER, excited for the wedding, they were eager to help.  Off I went with groceries in hand and a couple of salon options. Fingers crossed I pick the right one!

 

Stay tuned for pics!

 

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Another 2 weeks and I should have wifi again… Missing all of you!!

 

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

 

Photography compliments and copyrighted by K of theblackwallblog.

Through the Panic Wall 1.6.2019

With an exasperated groan, Megan threw back the covers. Sitting up, she turned and instantly shivered as her bare feet touched the cold floor. She knew her tossing and turning was causing the dog’s restlessness.  Grabbing her I-phone, the digital clock was showing it was barely 12:30 AM. UGH!

Her mind was buzzing. Round and round, snippets of conversations and events, from the last few months, all playing at once.  Comparable to 60 plus movies; Genres from romance, drama, and a bit of comedy. The brevity and speed of each scene, was comparable to, running on an overload of Red Bull. Thought snippets literally, flashed, flickered and bounced, about her brainwaves.

Her life, not negative, was filled with many questions, with yet to be discovered answers. But…

STOP, dammit!

She grabbed a coat to cover her PJ’s, stuck her feet in her favorite worn out sneakers, and took the dogs outside.

Immediately, they started barking. “Go potty”, she said, but obviously there was someone in the used car lot across the street. They refused to pay attention to their business. Gut intuition added to her heightened anxiety, she quickly gave up and shooed them back into the house and locked the deadbolt.

Pouring herself a mug of coffee, then topping it off with Almond milk, Megan thought, Why fight it? Feeling wide awake, she headed down the hall towards her office and laptop.

 

Panic attacks, suck!  Sorry, but they do!

Mine are random and occur occasionally, generally within days of encountering

A high stress situation. Much different than the early 90’s when at first I had zero clue as to what was happening. Back then they were an immediate response to seemingly nothing at all and happening several times per week.

 

 

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Tips to win the fight against anxiety:

*Research, research, research.

*Seek counseling.

*Identify!  NO! You are NOT losing your marbles!

*Search for an underlying cause.

*Start monitoring your caffeine intake.

*Learn coping mechanisms.

*Giving each at least 6 weeks, try one of the numerous  natural practices for rewiring your mind and thoughts.

*Implement Yoga and/or relaxation techniques.

*Take medication, if necessary.

*Exercise on a regular basis.

*Push on thru them.

*Get plenty of rest via a set sleeping schedule. Usually works, (wink)!

*Buy a Staples “That was Easy!”, button. (one of my earlier tricks and blog posts 3 years ago!) See link Below: **

* My favorite, PANIC ATTACK BUSTER, the counter clockwise to clockwise, pointer finger at belly button level exercise.  It is SO SIMPLE, yet SO EFFECTIVE!

See link Below: **

 

**The BlackWall Blog – all-natural-free-anxiety-reversal-trick posted 8.29.18

**The BlackWall Blog- Story about the Staples- “THAT WAS EASY” Post

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*Do NOT give up!

 

YES! There IS life before, after AND during panic attacks. NEVER, let them stop you from being you!

 

 

 

We are always learning!

Have a suggestion on how to cope with them?

Feel free to share!

 

*I am not a professional doctor, no degrees, except my Quick Books Certification, on my office wall. These are just suggestions of what I have done for the last 26ish years. During some of those years, I lived panic free! Need help? Please, contact your local professional healthcare provider.

 

 

Kind Regards and #winning -K