Random Rounds of Self

Funk in

Funk out.

Highs and Lows

Lows and Highs.

Yes u cans.

Can you yes?

Why yes I can!

 

YES!

I can allow myself to see the possibilities!

Stop the vicious circle of fear that,

Goes ’round and ’round in my head.

Hop off.

Go!

Okay, maybe a little more,

Rest a minute….

Dream a little dream…

See the sun through the rain….

BREATHE!

ENVISION!

Oh how many times, must I self talk myself through?

For as long as it takes.

As long as it takes?

That is  correct.

Roger that.

Onward I go.

 

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Kind Regards and # winning  -K

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FOREVER

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Look up my love, look up,

I am here my love, look up

I’ll be forever waiting 

With open arms and heart

Until then,

Live life, my love, 

Live life!

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Time ticks forward,

We love, suffer losses, yet somehow,

We carry on.

We persevere.

Grow stronger from the pain.

Carry that strong belief,

The universe is there for us

As we stroll along life’s path.

We cry in anguish.

We laugh wholeheartedly.

We love deeply, from within.

We live.

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Kind Regards and # winning – K

Photography compliments and copyrighted by BGAGE and TheBlackWallBlog.

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Daily and Family Traditions

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Good morning!

They” say breakfast is the most important meal of day.

I add, start your day with a ritual that allows you a positive mindset.

My daily ritual:

Each morning, I awake, flipping open the covers as I exclaim to the dogs

“Time to make the doughnuts!” – they understand,  time

to get up, go out, pee, then their REWARD- A TREAT!

Happy tails.  🙂

Next, I make coffee, grab my pen, flip to a fresh page in my journal.

First, I write the current date, then add  +$49,000, +$477,111 plus at the very top of the page.

(A little something, I learned, listening to “The secret”.)

Next I scrawl, “May health, wealth, inner peace, self-assuredness,  love, friendship, companionship, happiness, security, comfort, contentment,  along with abundance and success embrace me and those I love, like a warm hug.”

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Next- Written next  is the single word “EXCELLENT!”

No matter what mood I am in when I first open my eyes, that is how I start the day.

I scribble:

A brief overview via bits and pieces of what happened yesterday, what I accomplished,  what may have caused stress to release it….. ta ta!

My day has officially begun!

Today is a bit different, my youngest granddaughter and I had a slumber party last night,

This allowed mommy and daddy to have a date night.

It’s little girl hugs, (cannot get enough) coffee, making a bowl of lucky charms and  heading out to the front porch with my daughters lap top.

Fresh air,  peepers singing  in the background and the glow of the laptop screen.

 

 As soon as my  daughter comes downstairs a competition is planned.

Breakfast BOGGLE! To date, I am the champ. My brain is fresh this time of day.

Will I hang onto my title? Let the game begin!!

Boggle has been a part of  my life since I was young, I in turn taught it to my children.

No one has any idea how many hours we joyously, with pencils and paper ready- have flipped that little box of random letters over, started the timer and frantically scribbled every word we could find.  Laughter, silliness, giggles, a family at play.

No cell phones, no tv – just human interaction. Good  ol’ fashioned fun! Bonding.

This is how we make memories.

 

In a few hours, Ill be back on a plane to NH. (tearful  good byes, yet so blessed we had the time together.)

FAMILY. TRADITIONS. COMING TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME.

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!

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When was the last time you played games with your  family or friends?

 

Webster’s definition:

Definition of synchronize

  1. :  to happen at the same time

 

 

Have a glorious  Saturday! I will be thinking of you.

 

Kind Regards and all my love – K

 

Thank you Zen to Zany for your wonderful quotes and pics-  find her on Etsy .

 

 

Synchronize

Passions & Quotes

“Courage is fear holding on a minute longer. ” -George S. Patton

LGB’s favorite pastime
Eating Healthy
Time in the Woods
Dog sitting
Unconditional Love

Peaceful country life
Freedom
Collecting cow memorabilia
Being a G’ma
Sunday afternoon movie time
Lifestyle 

“When you start to do the things that you truly love, it wouldn’t matter whether it is Monday or Friday; you would be so excited to wake up each morning to work on your passions. “-Edmond Mbiaka
 

Kind Regards – K

 Photography compliments of LGB

Look for him as bgage on Viewbug 

Photo of LGB compliments of K 😆

I FOUND IT -Challenge accepted!

“Faith is almost the bottom line of creativity; it requires a leap of faith any time we undertake a creative endeavor, whether this is going to the easel, or the page, or onto the stage – or for that matter, in a homelier way, picking out the right fabric for the kitchen curtains, which is also a creative act.” – Julia Cameron

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I apologize, that I cannot recall who put out this challenge.

If it is you, please leave me a comment and receive credit!

It flashed across my phone within the last week and obviously stuck.

I’ll paraphrase, since I don’t recall the exact wording  – 

The challenge? Re-post your first post ever written. 

As I read it now, there is total recall of how low I felt at that moment.

There must have been a tiny spark of “perhaps if”, hidden deep

in my subconscious because reviewing the 14 months hence-

Damn!! “YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY BABY!!”

 

WHY?

Why am I here? Why have I started this blog? (Not very original I am sure) But-

Here I am in a place, a good job on the line, AGAIN… thought I had it all together, AGAIN…. and IT appeared- that which I call THE BLACK WALL…How do I know it is back? The warning signs –  feelings of helplessness, panic, self doubt, night sweats, anxiety, sadness, depression, lack of concentration, struggling to keep my head up, lack of interest of anything; food, friends, I have zero hopes or dreams. Just the seemingly simple act of getting up in the morning drains the very life out of me. I am back peddling like an insect caught off guard in the tub.. the drain has been let out and I sure don’t want to go down that hole to the unknown blackness. I have been there…. It took me a long  time and one hell of a lot of courage, sheer will, damn hard work and sacrifice to climb out and I DO NOT ever want to go there again. NOT EVER!!

Why do i call it THE BLACK WALL? I believe the best way to explain it is this. There are times I hit my head against it as I am trying to break through and keep on going and then other times, without warning it takes another form, the swirling black hole of nothingness. Oh it whispers as though it would be such a relief to no longer have to struggle against it. The warmth of being wrapped in that warm comforting cocoon of nothingness, no pain, no sorrow, no fear… but having been there, I know better.

I have years of tools, for fighting those ghosts, why all of a sudden, now, has it decided to return? If i knew the answer to that one I wouldn’t be counting pennies, I would be counting  colorful tasty umbrella drinks while vacationing on some island off the coast of who know’s where, with my soul mate, enjoying life. Laughing, dancing, swimming, living it up. Not sitting here in my pajamas after another sleepless night at 2 pm in the afternoon. For when I am at my best – ME- I am one of those dreaded “cheery” morning people. Grab a cup of coffee, face the day, singing- (Oh! stop! growling!). Most people that (think they, know me, have not one clue that I experience this. They would tell you I am one of the most fun, easy going, kindest, glass is half full individuals, with great strength of character. One of those people that is independent, always helping others, love to make people laugh with savvy sarcasm, quick wit, paying it forward and blah blah blah…

So I guess the answer to why I am here is to help myself find the inner strength to start to work those tools AGAIN…. find my path to them with a little help from my friends, as the song goes. Why the blog? Maybe just maybe, together if you are struggling too, we can work on it together. Compare notes. Work it. Support each other. Anonymously or not.  That is entirely up to you.

So this is my first day… the writing probably doesn’t flow.. but if I get one person to want to attempt the journey with me. Find our sense of balance, take that first R.T.S (reasonable tiny step) forward, than it is going to be the beginning of something great! Wow, I think that was a flash of exuberance that just popped out. I call that HOPE. I know in my heart if I am willing to allow my path to be lead by the universe and I remember to believe in me, stop trying to control everything… it can work. It’s just so damn hard taking that first step…

You know in the BIGGEST battle in my life I had with the The Black Wall – I lost my son to that “SOB”. I was such a proud “Blue Star Mom” but  I had gone so low I couldn’t even be there the day he came home after a year away serving his country. I don’t think he has ever forgiven me… I know I have tried to forgive myself… but that story is for another day…

 

Better

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Kind Regards and feeling grateful for everyday – K

Photography compliments of LGB aka bgage on viewbug

It’s Our One year Anniversary!

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  1. Happy Anniversary with WordPress.com!
    You registered on WordPress.com one year ago.
    Thanks for flying with us.
    Keep up the good blogging.
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    Thank you all for being a part of this wonderful journey!! Definitely could not have done it without each and every one of you!
  2. Kind Regards and Grins -K –

I earned $0 blogging but..

As I reach 492 followers, over 13 k views in 5 mos of blogging it hits me. 

$0 dollars earned.

Meaningful moments priceless!

I’ve made people laugh, cry, hope and met many that relate!

  •  I have been inspired, uplifted and giggled at some of my favorite regulars comments…
  • What a fabulous journey!!

Feeling alive is not price -tag-able!

I am pleasantly surprised and blessed  many times a week with new wonderfully talented followers, comrades and possibilities!!

Thank you all for each role you have played in this experience! 

I’m hooked!!


Kind Regards and #winning-K

Back to Reality

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Good news… I made it through the first week of my  new job! 

A statement with an immense hidden meaning.

Allow me to translate; I overcame a boat load of anxiety by facing it!

 

a) Overcame my insomnia, created a sleeping routine for 5 days. (WOW! 5 DAYS!)

b) Drove to work.

c) Met new people.

d) I spent time in an unfamiliar place. (Over 9 hours a day!)

e) Kept  my mind in the now. (Practiced mindfulness.)

f) Pushed aside negative thoughts of failure, replacing them with,

“I have been successful for most of my life and

there is no reason I cannot do this.”

g) Implemented and maintained a walking schedule

after work each day to relieve stress and up my serotonin levels.

h) Continued to win the fight over the question;

Is my body truly healthy and will it allow me to do this?  

My answer? “YES, DAMMIT, IT IS!!”

 

#WINNING!!

 

#HappyDance!!

 

This was a test, it was only a test, had it been an actual emergency you would have been told where to tune in your area…. or something along those lines. ha!

 

 

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If I can do it, you surely can!! 

Kind Regards – K

 

 

 

 

 

Daily prompt Test

Found A Feather-What Does it Mean?

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge – Feathers 

Have you found a feather recently?

Look below the pictures for possible meanings

ENJOY!

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**Have you found a feather recently?

Take a look below to find out what it could mean.

White.

This is the most common Angel feather, and is thought to be a sign of faith and protection. A white feather can also be your Angel telling you that any loved ones in heaven are safe and well. Read more about finding white feathers here.

Pink

A pink feather is a sign of love from your Angels. They are letting you know that their love is unconditional.

Purple

Purple is a colour that represents spirituality. Perhaps your Angels are prompting you to activate higher thought and connectivity.

Red

A red feather represents courage, strength, stability and good fortune. If you’ve been going through a difficult time of late, your Angels are sending comfort to let you know how strong you are.

Yellow

Should you find a yellow feather, your Angels may be nudging you to smile, have fun and enjoy life!

Green

Green feathers represent prosperity and growth. If you find a green feather, you’re in luck!

Blue

Blue represents communication, so a blue feather may well be your Angels telling you to listen! Blue is also a sign of peace and protection.

Grey

Grey feathers can symbolize peace, as well as neutrality. If you see a grey feather in your path, your Angels may be trying to tell you that the answer to a certain situation may not be as straightforward as a yes or no. Read more about grey feathers here.

Brown

Brown feathers symbolize home and grounding. Perhaps your home life will see positivity soon!

Black

A black feather is a sign of protection from your Angels. They are here to guard you and repel negative energy. Read more about black feathers here.

Orange

Orange feathers will bring you attraction and success! This is a sign that any new ideas or opportunities are approved by your Angels.

No matter what the colour or meaning, finding feathers is a true blessing and a sign of love from your Angels.

**reference to wishing moon – http://www.wishingmoon.com/feathers-appear-when-angels-are-near-what-is-the-meaning-of-finding-feathers/

Kind Regards and feeling a bit flighty – K

 

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DAILY POST Learning

Three More AWARDS From Awesome Bloggers!

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The RunRabbitRun Award

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It is with great pleasure,

I have accepted this award from, the utopia universe

who received it from RUN.RABBIT.RUN PTSD ,

a gal who very bravely puts herself our there.

Both are amazing and inspirational blogs, if you have not visited these blogs to date, pop over and introduce yourself to Lotte at run rabbit run and don’t forget to stop by the utopia universe for some optimism.

Both have the courage, many would envy.

Thank you  for considering me for this award, that previously was the Blogger Recognition Award.  I feel grateful that it carries your personal seal of approval.

My Advice to New Bloggers:

Write and share about anything and everything that inspires you.

Get to know the blogging community, make new connections and you may find you will find some very warm hearted new friends. Join challenges, Meet and Greets. But most of all, put your heart into whatever you post. Remain honest and true.

The Rules:-

Thank the blog who nominated you, share the link and award on your blog.

Write a brief story on how you started blogging and

any advice you would give to a new blogger.

Select nominees (max 15)

Advise nominees.

 

My Nominees:

bercatliz

Haddon Musings

VisualAtelier

my child within

 

You will see that all the above blogs are different,and all interesting in their own way, I hope you enjoy.

Please, take the time to visit each one!

 

#2

another Liebster award

 

Thank you to a dreaming domestic diva for nominating me!! This is quite an honor!!

It is my 4th nomination and it still feels as fabulous as the first!! 

Things I must do:

  • write a post to show your award
  • Acknowledge the blogger that nominated you
  • Give a brief story of why you started blogging
  • Give advice to your fellow bloggers
  • Nominate few bloggers for the award
  • Leave a comment to let the nominated bloggers know about the award.

 

Why-

Because, I need to update that handy dandy toolbox of mine.

Hopefully, I can help a few others update theirs.  

Having a chance to learn from each other is a gift! Never ignore the possibility 

of the great things you can achieve as a team, striving for the same goal!

There is so much to learn about the behavior of the human animal .

Depression, anxiety, panic, PTSD…. Working together I truly believe:

“WE”- can make a difference. 

 

My nominees:

rabbitpatchdiarycom

miraclegirlblog

SPRINKLE OF THOUGHTS

 

 

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#3

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ABOUT THE AWARD

The MakeItUltra™ Blogger Award is an award given to bloggers by bloggers for quality content, originality and presentation. The intention of this award is to encourage connectivity and support in the blogging community and to increase exposure for individual bloggers.

I would like to thank  eddaz – Love & Relationships, Lifestyle, Poetry for nominating me. This is a MAJOR HONOR!!

THE RULES

If you have been nominated for the MakeItUltra™ Blogger Award and choose to accept, write a blog post about the MakeItUltra™ Blogger Award in which you:

1. Thank the person who nominated you and post a link to their blog on your blog. Take a moment to positively promote the person who nominated you.

2. Display the award on your blog by adding it to your post and/or displaying it using a widget on your page (Save the image to your computer and upload it to your blog post).. Don’t forget to use the tag #MyUltraAward when you make your post!

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Mugilan Raju – Narcotics words

Granny Moon’s Morning Feast

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Richard M. Ankers

Welcome To Aussie Emus World

 

Kind Regards – K

One Main Reason

I Have A Blog.

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Today is the anniversary of the loss of  two young lives while

 “in action” approximately 2 hours from Kabul.

Our boys, from our town were there and no one was to know.

It all has been kept secret.

Today a post was put up to commemorate

the loss of two of their comrades.

I can do the math, the distance calculations and

put the story together pretty quickly.

I know my son was there.

No one will talk about it.

There is an unspoken code of silence

between those who were there.

And that is okay.

But, today, finally, we can have a moment of silence and

pray for the families of those young lives..

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“Six years ago, we lost two outstanding members of the Mountain Batallion and two beautiful human beings that left an impact on every life they came across. Remembering Tristan Southworth and Steve Deluzio today. Never forgotten.”

~ From a member of the Mountain Batallion.

 

And we continue to lose 25 per day to suicide.

God Bless the men and women and the families

of those  

who serve,

have served

and gave the ultimate sacrifice.

 

 

Kind Regards and praying – K

 

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Mount Holly, Vermont- Final The History

 

At the end of this post, there is a link to the

history and genealogy of Mount Holly, VT.

From two settlements that lived 3 miles from each other,

not knowing the other existed,

to the start of the Crowley Cheese factory

to the findings of a Woolly Mammoth’s remains.

It truly is an interesting and worthwhile read. 

 

Did you ever notice no matter where you go,

there is at least one in every crowd?

 

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Elbow anyone?

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Or perhaps a moss heart ?

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I was so excited when I saw this thru the camera

lens!! I was so sure I had found a relic from history!

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When I walked around to the other side it was just a plain white rock!!

Nature is incredible!

 

Early morning deer tracks!!

They aren’t stupid, ya know.

Why go thru the thick brush

when some idiot human

built them a road?  🙂 4 deer tracks on road

 

For my flower and pink loving friends!

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Singing “Sign, sign everywhere a sign….Do this don’t do that can’t ya read…”

That’s a mean curve!! Thought I was going back where I came from!

 

Old man in a tree?

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Everyone loves a picture of a barn and a silo, right?

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Wanna climb through with me??

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There is always someone telling me where to go!!

 

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link History for True History buffs- Excellent read!

 

THE END!!

 

Kind Regards and thank you for your patience – K

 

Copyrighted and compliments of K and L.G.B!

 

 

 

 

 

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Off to Mount Holly and more…

Good morning…Raising my coffee mug to you!!

It’s 4 am… I am getting ready to leave.. all packed…

Yes, I crave chocolate, hot fudge Sundaes, and a good boiled lobster with steamers (preferably while sitting at Barnacle Bills in Maine)…. I also crave time in the woods with my best friend, trails, wildlife, small brooks, streams and looking for natural treasures… My grandmother was the youngest of 9 and grew up on a giant farm in Brandon, Vt… So I guess it is in my blood…. So back to nature I go… 

Here is one of my all time favorite’s from childhood! Also, the first poem I ever remembered, no need to memorize, it just took hold of my heart and I have carried it with me for over 50 years! Now there is a scary thought!!  😉

“Who has seen the wind?
Neither I nor you.
But when the leaves hang trembling,
The wind is passing through.
Who has seen the wind?
Neither you nor I.
But when the trees bow down their heads,
The wind is passing by.”

~Christina Georgina Rossetti
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Nature’s Picture Frame- copyrighted and compliments of K 8/2016

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Nature’s Picture Frame #2 copyrights and compliments of K 8/2016

 

Do you have any Nature’s picture Frames that you would like to share??

Please link to this post.. share on your page then place the comment section. When I get back Sunday I will share them…

Have a wonderful weekend… hoping to get even more pics and who knows… maybe a bit of gold or treasures with a borrowed metal detector….

Nature, history, streams and dreams all rolled into one..

 

Kind Regards and feeling grateful – K

 

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Coffee keeps me going Why not inspire me with a cup

LINK to buy me a coffee…

Daily post Craving

K’s Thursday Inspirations …

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Once again, featuringMy favorite, Zen to Zany!!

Does one or more of these sayings/prints

reach out and touch you?

Leave me a comment & tell me which one !

Feel free to leave an overview as to why. 

 

NEWS NEWS NEWS!!

Well, miracle of miracles-

I have a chance once again,

to visit the hunting camp 

in the mountains!!

The price is right… free.. 🙂 .

I will be leaving Friday morning

around 5 am … WOOT! WOOT!!

Kind Regards and thinking of YOU – K

 

 

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Inspire me with a cup of coffee 🙂

LINK to buy me a coffee…

 

 

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