What Are You Journaling About Today? 6.25.19

This morning I jotted down all the anxiety related things I pushed through yesterday.

Go me!

Grocery shopping can be a panic trigger. Why? So many sights, sounds, temperature changes AND people. All of these items put your body on alert.

Challenge yourself to go into the grocery store and buy 1 or 2 items. Then celebrate your success. Journal about how great it is!

It helps me to visualize how wonderful I’m going to feel once I have completed my shopping.

Next time slowly walk each aisle. Pay attention to all the items. Think positive!

You can do it. One step at a time.

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Let me know how you do.

Kind Regards and #winning- K

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Winter Got You Down? 4.13.19

In some parts of the USA,

Old Man Winter refuses to

leave!

Got the Winter blues?

So what can you do?

Bring those summertime days to you! 🌞

Why not have a family style living room picnic!

Make a macaroni salad, whip up some hot dogs and burgers, grab a bag of chips, cut up some fresh veggies and fruit place in brightly covered bowls and make a batch of ice cold lemonade.

Now, throw a red and white checked tablecloth on the coffee table!

Use paper cups and plates for easy clean up! 😁

“Take time to do what makes your soul happy.”Unknown

Have a wonderful Saturday!

#winning!

Kind Regards – K

Take the Win! 4.6.19

It was a fantastic day for hopping on a bike for the first time in 20 years! Though, I still couldn’t open the child proof cap on my “Women over 50”,vitamins!

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I’ll take the win!

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My daughter and hubby went grocery shopping for me.

I stayed home and played with my granddaughter!

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Hey! Hey!

THE MONKEYS THEME SONG- YouTube

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I’ll take that win, anytime!

Kind Regards and #winning- K

Photography and video copyright- K of TheBlackWallBlog!

Don’t like it? Change it! 4.2.2019

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Happy Tuesday morning!

How is everyone doing?

 

As most of you know, I am on the the second to last leg of withdrawing off prescription Xanax. Not due to abuse, but due to moving to a new state and struggling to find a doctor that will continue the same anxiety regimen I have been on for the last 20 years.

My next doctors visit will be April 10th and I only have .75 of Lorazepam to go. My current drop has been 1.50 broken into 2 weeks drop of .75 each.

It has not been a fun one. Good ol’ anxiety has reared it’s head. Not an old friend I am welcoming with open arms. Grrrr!

I was chatting with my daughter on the phone yesterday, complaining about the current state of anxiousness. She said, “Good! Don’t like it, this is a chance for you to change it.”

At first I was a bit taken aback.

Then the more I thought about it. I realized, SHE WAS RIGHT!

I was NOT going to allow this anxiety to get the best of me! This was not a new path. The battle of wits between this old enemy of mine has been going on and off for years. I was NOT going to lay down and take it!

Realistically, I was smart enough to know that I needed a good nights rest, and it would be good to hit it head on in the morning. I watched some television and headed to bed.

I arose this morning, took a shower. The whole time practicing positive self talk. Along with my self talk, I envisioned a positive outcome. This was something I learned and practiced a long time ago.

I thought, why not give it a try, again?

Today’s battle? To be able to drive to the grocery store!

It may not sound like a big deal, but, anxiety can be a sneaky bugger and talk you out of all kinds of things. Especially, when you have to go a few weeks not driving due to withdrawals.

The outcome?

Winner, winner, chicken, dinner! I just arrived home, with a few groceries.

 

#winning!

Remember to always celebrate the seemingly little things! You deserve it!

Kind Regards and hugs – K

 

PS- A shout out thank you goes to my daughter! I love it when she pushes me! Love you honey! xxooxxoo

 

Locked in a Haze 3.22.2019

If anyone had told me 2 months ago this is how I would be spending today, I would have laughed at them.

But, here I am. In a hazy zone of .75 of lorazepam away of being free of over 20 years of medicinal prescription Xanax.

Not abused, but fighting the fight of panic and anxiety.

Day 3 in of this step and I’m living through swollen eyelids of fuzzy vision, achy joints, burning muscles and fog brain. Rather like driving down a road through thick fog on the dead of night in a downpour.

You can barely see to make your way home. Yet, you are determined to do just that!

As I am, determined to make my way home!

Get through this damn process!

Claim my life back!

Has it been just over a month?

Cripes! It feels likes it’s been a year!!

I’m not whining, though I would love to, ha ha! πŸ˜‰

Keep those prayers coming! I’m headed for the home stretch…

Watch out, I’m coming home!

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#winning!!

Kind Regards and love to all – K

Photography copyrighted and compliments of K of theBlackWallBlog!