TODAY WE CELEBRATE! 2.16.2019

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Celebrate! Celebrate! Dance to the music… (Three Dog Night)

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Good morning,

Yesterday morning, when I took the dogs out for their morning walk… the sky, almost daylight bright from the light beaming from the moon and stars, looked as if someone had tossed hand fulls of cotton balls all about. It was an awesome sight! This morning, it’s dark and drizzling.

BUT there is “nothing” that can darken this day!

TODAY, I will be attending my youngest grand daughter’s birthday party. It will be the first time I will be able to appear in person, not via FACETIME!

Happy Dance!!  WOOT WOOT!!

 

Tomorrow, I will start the med change, for today I will revel in what I have been hoping to do for FIVE years!

TODAY, WE SHALL CELEBRATE LIFE WITH DANCING, SINGING, ENJOYING GRANDDAUGHTER HUGS AND EATING CAKE!!

#WINNING

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Kind Regards and wishing you the best day- K

 

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After the Rooster Crows 2.6.2019

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Good morning.

Happy Wednesday!

According to Siri, my I-phone, Troutman, NC should have a temperature 

Around 70 degrees today! yahoo!

 

Do you have a morning routine?

I do.

Start the coffee, walk the dogs, feed the fur children, Marbre’, my cat, then my beloved canines, Chief and Abby.

Pour a cup of coffee.

Pop open the computer, a fresh word doc and type or grab a pen, my journal and write.

There is something about putting pen to paper, I find calming and soothing.

Early Morning Journaling

My scrawled words

Enrich the paper

Wtih sentiments, thoughts and wishes.

From dreams, to logging life’s events.

Whether fond memories, frustration or woes.

Releasing all upon a blank sheet,

Creates an inner harmony 

 No other early morning

 Activity can beat.

Writing or typing allows me 

An opportunity to

 Makes sense of some,

Chuckle at others,

Or allows me, to set free

Any negativity from yesterday. 

A clean slate, 

Enables my heart,

My soul, my mind

To open, be trusting, 

And accept 

All the possiblities,

And potential,

Of a fresh, new day!

 

 I am thinking of creating a journal with a large variety of life’s pictures, from a group of friends photos scattered throughout. The clicks can be used for writing exercises or for the viewing pleasure of the person who still journals. What do you think?

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Place for Everything 2.3.2019

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Moving?

Leave the negative dirt and dust behind.

Rule of thumb:  New place/home, once you arrive, purchase a new dust pan, broom and vacuum cleaner.

Excellent concept!

That is exactly what I did. Now that I am in North Carolina I have purchased  a bright red broom and dustpan, the  vacuum is a purple upright, bagless Hoover.

Bright vibrant colors for a fresh start!

 

A place for everything and everything in it’s place. Who said that?

 

As I open my moving boxes, each piece of  memorabilia is cleansed  with clorox wipes.  Each piece of  clothing and bedding is either tossed or freshly washed.  This should remove any negativity from the past.

A slow process, but definitely worth it.

NOW the difficult part. Where should each precious item go?

The newest trend is to be a minimalist. That is a fantastic thought. For me, there are some things that cannot be replaced. My antique saws and antique tools from my older brother.

The memory of my pond  in the garden out front. I brought these frogs, to always carry a piece of that pond with me.

froggies from the pond garden at home

Going through the totes of a large variety of items, I realize that some will have a place others will not.

Setting up your new place:

When someone walks through your front door… what will they see? When you walk through the door what says “HOME” to you?

Well I am off to play with some antique washboards and other beloved treasures.

 

Enjoy your day.

Here in North Carolina the sun is shining on Superbowl Sunday!!

 

 

Love and hugs to all.

Kind Regards – K

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Own the Day! 1.31.2019

 

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Good morning all. 

 19 degrees here in North Carolina! We are extremely lucky considering other parts of the country are experiencing sub-zero temps. 

I wanted to share a little something I wrote a few weeks ago. When you endure days with anxiety, panic and depression, you often have to reach deep to find your strength.

Writing brings my inner strength to the forefront of my mind and helps me  grab onto the life I deserve! Putting my thoughts on paper, re-enforces the positive and gives me a little extra push, for my continuous journey forward.

Part of #winning is learning what it takes to be your own cheerleader!

 

Own the Day

‘Own the day or the day could own you.’- Kallie Knight

She was back! The drug, the doctor had prescribed day before yesterday, had taken her to a euphoria buzz, onto fog brain, then about 12 hours later, weakness, severe headache, heart palpitations accompanied by a sore throat.

Thursday had been a waste.  She couldn’t sleep. She couldn’t think clearly enough to perform the simple task of washing the dishes.

Damn doctors, she thought. Why can’t they listen? She had told her new primary care physician, that anything he prescribed needed to be the lowest dose then divided by half.  Thank heavens she had taken half a pill, 10 mg of the 20 mg prescription.

The drug? ESCITLOPRAM. It was supposed to enhance her mood, work with her current depression med. Now, she knew, when and IF she attempted it again, she was would only take 5mg.

Right now, she had responsibilities. Her dogs, prepping to finally, after a month and a half of living in an interim place, to MOVE! A REAL apartment!  The place she would call home.

K smiled as she  looked forward to hanging her hat!

YES! Today she would start to move a few things.  Luckily, her daughter who currently lived there, had the second bathroom cleaned out. Today, she would pick the items that could fit into that room. Only, fifteen minutes away from her current location it was like the difference from night and day.

Troutman, NC was a slice of heaven! Acres of fields, open space with the bonus of horses and cows, down the road. It was the one place, her whole being felt at home.

 

 

FINALLY, she felt HOPEFUL!

Doing the best one can, under any circumstance is what earns a person the title of survivor.

Feeling intense relief, she sipped her morning coffee, and felt exhilarated!

She KNEW-

TODAY, SHE OWNED THE DAY!

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Compliments of Zen to Zany!!

 

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

The Difference (a short story)

Who knows if Frank ever truly loved her for his forever, as he vowed. The answer to that question was buried along with him.

 

It was cancer, as he had foreseen. It hit him as second cancer, according to the experts. It wasn’t longer than 6 months after, his one year cancer free anniversary. Six months after he had told her he was going to die soon anyway, so he wanted his freedom. Therefore, she could start grieving him now. Just pretend I have already passed on, were his words.

 

Kate thought he was hilarious. “Since when in the last 3 years, have you not already done exactly what you wanted?”, she chuckled along with her reply. He smiled that odd secretive smile he often used when he was already living inside his own thoughts. Hugged her and walked away.

 

 

Kate knew all too well the difference between “pretend” death and the real thing. She knew when a person was gone,eventually, those 

left behind, could find solace. There was an acceptance of knowing their loved one, was no longer in pain and felt at peace.

 

When she was fifteen, her mom, lost a 3 ½ year battle against leukemia and cancer. Her father had gone to the other side after a sudden heart attack in 1998. Then bone cancer that moved upward, took her older brother in 2007, when Kate was in her early forties.

 

Often, on a bad day, she would still talk to them. Instinctively, Kate felt them as they watched over her. Angels. 

She thought of them as protective angels, 

keeping herself, her children and later her grandchildren from harm. 

Hell, her theory was 

proven when she was barely 16. One late,sunny summer afternoon, as they were cruising up the road on his dirt bike. Suddenly, she hollered into her high school boyfriend’s ear,

 YOU HAVE GOT TO PULL OVER, I HAVE TO GET OFF!

 

From nowhere, she had this desperate anxiety flood 

every nerve in her body. Panic succumbed her thoughts. The message? 

GET OFF THAT BIKE, KATE! GET OFF THAT BIKE RIGHT NOW!

 

Dave, being the loving, caring boyfriend that he was, pulled over to the side of the country road. She hopped off. He looked at her, shrugged his shoulders, gave her the, are you sure look? She nodded. They were approximately 1500 feet from the base of his parents driveway. Slowly, he pulled away.

 

Just as he turned onto the hill of the driveway, the bike’s throttle stuck, discovering the brakes were gone, he had no choice but to jump off. Somehow, the bike, remained 

perfectly upright. It gained speed up the hill, across the driveway and crashed 

full throttle into the garage doors at the other end. He could hear the high pitch wine of the engine that within seconds, sputtered and died.

 

Kate came running. Still laying on the side of the driveway, Dave looked up at her and asked, “How THE HELL, did you know?”, “I didn’t.”, she replied, still slightly out of breath. “All I knew, was for some dang reason, I just HAD to get off that friggin bike! 

 

Sitting up in the grass, he reached for her and pulled her close. She snuggled in and the two of them just sat there for an hour or more, holding each other. They quietly chatted, as young lovers do. Occasionally, one of them glanced towards the mutilated dirt bike.

That, was the day it started…  

 

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Thought I would try my hand at a short story.

In all honesty, I picked up a new journal the other day.

As I was putting away the groceries, I picked up a pen and that story wrote itself.

Some is fiction, some is not.

Kind Regards and #winning- K

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Photography, copyrighted and compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog. 12.18

 

 

 

Dreams Can Come True 12.25.18

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Merry Christmas all!

I hope this finds you all happy and enjoying a festive day with loved ones.

Whether it be friends or family, having  people around to be supportive and to
care for is probably more important than a lot of people realize. (Including me for a long time)

I, for the first time in years, enjoyed sneaking over to my daughter’s house

to be there when my youngest granddaughter awoke.

Yes! I got to see her face as she came around the corner and found

Santa had indeed, left many glorious gifts under the tree!

Even those darn reindeer left quite a mess in the driveway, spreading oats all about!

(Viualize a 4 1/2 year old with hands on hips looking disgusted. tee! hee!).

It is the first time in years that I have had this pleasure.

My heart is singing!!

 

If you are spending a day alone, as I have in the past. That is okay too.

Do your best to think about what you are grateful for. What is in your life

that causes you to smile?

Watch an upbeat movie, comedy, favorite sport’s show. By all means, if someone invites you over to din din, GO.

I often spent the day, relaxing in my jammies, making it my own special occasion.

What ever you decide works best for you, GO FOR IT!

Promise me one thing, if for one minute you feel darkness or an overwhelming sadness creeping in… Get yourself out of the house and around people or pick up the phone and call someone to chat! If needed head to the local hospital. Whatever you need to do to make it through this day… DO IT.

YOU ARE WORTH IT!
As seems to be my norm… I found a few quotes to share:

 

“When the universal timing and our timing are different, that doesn’t mean that

things aren’t working. Trust the process.” – Unknown

 

It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves.” – Sir Edmund Hillary

 

“The first step toward success is taken when you refuse to be a captive of the 

environment in which you first find yourself.” – Mark Caine

 

If I can make it, so can you!! xxooxxoo

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Kind Regards and sending holiday hugs to all – K

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Photography copyrighted and compliments of BGage. Quote signage created in Text2Pic and Motivation quotes brought together by K – 12.2018

Happy 24th of December!

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I apologize for my absence.

Moving has been an adjustment, but what a glorious experience.

A revelation really.

The strength that one finds, when they have forgotten how strong they are

has been eye opening!

It didn’t happen over night.

I continue to be a work in process.

As I look back over the last few weeks I now know that it

was something that needed to be done.

 

 

 

Happy Christmas eve day to all that are celebrating!

Hello to the rest of my blogging friends!

and remember…

 

“Never give up. 

Never give in  and when the upper hand is ours.

May we have the ability to handle the will with the dignity that we absorbed the loss.” 

-Doug Williams

 

Kind Regards and giant hugs- K

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Photography compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog Dec 2018.

 

Boundaries and no answers. 12.16.18

Dealing with changes is challenging no matter what your age.

At 56 after waiting 8 very long years for my son, a vet and I, to find a middle ground, I decided to make that move from NH to NC.

Sadly/gladly, thanks to my daughter, the day we packed the truck for the move, I saw my son for the first time in two years.

He stated, you’ve never came to visit me. Interesting statement considering I had been told his home was off limits.

Trying for a mom hug, the response? “You start any shit and I’ll get in my truck and leave.”

Painful? Hell yes!

Am I still sad? Definitely!

Can I continue to keep my life on hold? No!

He’s angry about life.

I’ve researched, tried at least 20 plus ways to approach him.

It doesn’t work!

I’ve been in NC, barely a week and now I’m getting angry texts. Some random subjects that make zero sense, others make sense but, why now?

He just threatened me with not being in my life if I don’t give a particular item of mine, that I had planned on giving him.

Uhm, hello?

He would have had it the day I moved. Unfortunately in texting with him a few days earlier he informed me he wasn’t going to be there, so I packed it.

Three guesses which box? Honestly, I don’t know.

My dad was a correctional officer in the 1940-50’s. I have his badge. My son followed a similar route, not the same state. Yes, it would be awesome for him to have it.

But he’s accusing me of hiding it from him. Sigh.

So after numerous ugly texts that started last night. Then continued into today.

I blocked him.

Then got physically ill.

😢

He text me a different way.

“You blocked me?”

I didn’t answer.

I’m out of answers.

My son always says-

A MOTHER NEVER GIVES UP!

He’s Right!

I JUST PUT MYSELF IN TIMEOUT!

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“It’s okay to be scared, but you have to get out there, open up, love, make mistakes, learn, be stronger, and start all over again. -Unknown

Kind Regards and

Moving forward- K

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Photography compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog 12.18

Moving Day! Yikes!

Happy Saturday!

It’s an extremely cold single digit temperature, this early a.m.! Brrrr!

I’m sitting here amongst 2 gigantic walls of boxes thinking 🤔 Damn! I sure could use a Riverside Restaurant, (Springfield, VT), Reuben and some fries!!! Ha! Ha!

I’m sipping on a wee hour of the morning, coffee… my “Hope I haven’t forgotten anything thoughts”, are swirling! 😳🤷🏻‍♀️

Well the gang showed up!

Truck picked up and packed!

Left early evening to get a head start! There is a big snow storm moving in down South.

Just wanted to drop by with an update and a hello!

Drove about 2 hours…

Thought for today:

Love and Kind Regards – K

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Co-piloting is hard work!

Ok Chief Enough is enough! Or is it?

Oh! My husky has been secretly chatting with Old man Winter, AGAIN!

Early morning NH 11.20.18

And the snow continues!

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“Dream big and make life fun! Do something outrageous each day. Follow your passion. Believe in yourself.” – Unknown

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Kind Regards and staying toasty – K

It just keeps a coming! 11.18.18

As I continue my quest to ready myself for the move from NH to NC.

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Who knew?

Between my parent’s stuff and my children’s stuff from birth through school days into adulthood!

Add years of all my crafts, sewing, woodworking along with miniatures in the 1/12th scale!

Sorting and sorting from nooks, crannies, totes, closets and file cabinets. All tucked away in the garage, storage and closets!

Am I a hoarder or a sentimental Ol’ fool?

Bring on more Kleenex, I’m diving in again!

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Kind Regards and reminiscing- K

Chief’s special gift

Yesterday, Mother Nature delivered my beloved husky a special gift.

The beauty of a seasonal first snow fall, complete with, chill you through to the bone, winds.

His favorite season. Often he begs to go out, at least eleven times plus, on a snow day!

He’ll be 13 this Christmas. He’s slowed down quite a bit in the last few months.

Then there are moments like yesterday, when he is filled with puppy like exuberance. Which he pays for with 3 plus hour naps afterwards.

Bittersweet moments these days, as I pack. I’m not sure if the move is going to be too much for him.

He senses my inner struggles, with my past visions of a different scenario, for this move. Which, unfortunately is no longer an option. Not my choice. But one, I have to live with. The only person in my control, is me. 😉

So New England, once again, I shall be leaving in the very near future.

I’ll be back to visit someday.

For now, It’s my time to journey on…

Kind Regards and putting one foot in front of the other- K

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Photography copyrighted and compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog 11.13.2018.

The more clear you are in the vision of what you want in life, the brighter the spotlight will be to lead you on the right path.” – Unknown

Great Things are Happening! 10.19.18

Please be patient with me.

I am running a bit behind this week.

There are major “positive” changes happening in my life.

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Often, when times seem bleak and you are feeling lost. Thinking and fretting while wondering what the hell you are going to do? Because things are NOT working….

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The universe opens a door to an opportunity. An opportunity which causes a ripple and suddenly everything is falling into place. Your heart, soul and your mind know, THIS IS THE PATH, you must follow!

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I am, selling my house after 22 years. (Yikes) YES! I have an offer! WOW!

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Packing and preparing to move from NH to NC!

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I will be closer to my littlest granddaughter!

Finally, I will be able to watch her grow!

Lots of glorious G’ma hugs in my future! ❤️☀️❤️

GREAT STUFF!

“The warmth of the rays of glorious sunshine surround me!” 🌞

#winning

Kind Regards and thinking of all of you- K

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Goodbye

I set myself free today.

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Let you go,

Fluttering away as a

Colorful autumn leaf.

Twirling, twisting

Across the lawn,

In a gust of wind.

Whoosh! Came another

And you flew

Up, up, up and away,

On a cloud filled day.

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I smiled.

Then exhaled,

Gently relaxing into

My own sweet release.

Kind Regards

and #winning- K

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Today I’m Going

Today, I’m going

to cry.

Release tears

held back,

way too long.

Today, I’m going

to feel the hurt.

Allowing my hidden

anguish, anger, and

frustration to flow.

In salty tears

streaming down

my cheeks.

I will finally,

let you go.

Today, I’m going

to start to heal.

Crying from

my broken heart,

While exposing

raw pain,

living deep

within this soul.

Should definitely

let me go.

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Have you tried their creative writing trigger?

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Kind Regards – K