1.29.19 AHHH WIFI AND LIFE! (2 min read)

HELLO EVERYONE!

Finally, I am back!

So much has happened, I will attempt to give you the Reader’s Digest version:

First of all I would like to say, I have missed every single one of you. Sounds crazy, but I love being a part of the blogging family!  Sending out warm wishes and K hugs all around!!  🙂

I am finally  moved into my new apartment! Thank you very much to my daughter, her new hubby and brothers! Happy dance going on here!!

Back in the country again! Yes! Troutman, NC is a little bit country.

When I walk the dogs early in the morning, I can hear the cows mooing down the street!

Abby and Chief, feel quite at home! Lot’s of grass, space and a whole lot of new smells. What more could a beloved fur child ask for?

These last few days have been  frustrating, eye-opening and a celebratory time.

Celebration: Moved and a whole bedroom of boxes to explore! Wifi is back! We feel extremely at home in our new place. One neighbor even brought me some of his specialty chicken as a welcome to the neighborhood! Too cool!

My grandaughter started a new Christian private school yesterday! A glorious opportunity for her to receive a wonderful education!

Eye opening:  I have a new primary physician! He was very intelligent and I loved the overall feel of the office. They called me “Miss K”.

I got my overdue eye exam done. New glasses on the way!

One downside, I have the beginning stages of cataracts! A bit of a scare for me.  Macular degeneration is hereditary, and when my grandmother, soon after retirement had one of hers removed, she lost her sight in that eye. With an inoperable cataract in the other eye eventually she became legally blind. Something, I have had a subconscious fear of for over twenty years.

Frustration: I have one daily medication that I take, that I am having a difficult time finding a doctor to prescribe. It is not controlled in North Carolina as it was up North. The frustrating aspect- I have to somehow prove I am not a drug addict! Guilty until you prove yourself innocent. To prove one’s innocence you have to get an appointment.  That is the challenge! No one will let me in the door so that I can do so. I will NOT give up, I cant! But definitely a PIA!!

#Winning: I AM HERE! 

I am getting settled!

My dreams are coming true.

Blue skies babee!!

A click from my walk at the new place the other night!

 

“With confidence you have won even before you have started.” – Marcus Garvey

Since I have arrived at this part of my life journey, I have proven, once again, push on through your panic and you can live the life you deserve!!

Just close your eyes and DO IT!

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

 

 

 

Happy New Year 2019

Happy 2019 Here We Go!!

No resolutions did I make

Except each day

When I awake,

I’ll enjoy my coffee

With a smile.

While looking forward to

What each day unfolds.

 

 

I am driving the vehicle,

to my own destiny.

The possibilities are endless.

I wish you much happiness and success in the coming year.

 

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

*** Photography copyrighted and compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog.

 

NC Winter is Rain 12.30.18

QUICK!  NAME (Or sing), SONGS with RAIN in the lyrics…. GO!

“It never rains in California, but girl don’t they warn ya, it pours, man it pours.”

“Rainy nights In Georgia…”

“Singing in the Rain…”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yesterday, I awoke, to gray skies but by the afternoon, it was blue skies and upper fifties! All that vitamin D lifts my mind, body and soul.

Today, I awoke to a heavy chest. I opened my eyes and stared straight into Marbre’ Mitten’s eyes. Sure enough, my beloved, chill cat, had laid herself across my chest. She positioned herself perfectly so that our faces were less than an inch apart.  Playing on the meow radio, was her sweet, peaceful purring song. 

Chief, Abby and I had our usual 2:30 a.m. trek. Opening the front door, we discovered the beginning of little sprinkles.  A gentle rain as opposed to the torrential downpour Friday. That caused flooding in a few areas closer to the coast.

Chief doesn’t mind, though we all know he prefers snow. It’s poor little Abby. As a Yorkie-poo, much closer to the ground, Chief often leads her into puddles that soak her belly.  She’s a trooper. She just wades on through. Perhaps she needs some colorful boots? (Moments like this, I would love to be a cartoonist with the ability to sketch that visual!)

We walked a few feet west and I noticed, what looked like a baby skunk crossing the road to the grassy hill on the other side. It didn’t quite waddle like a skunk. I was almost sure I saw black and white stripes but… Then I noticed there was a larger one of the same species, already in the grass. The bigger one seemed to have more of a white fur base. Peering through the lights of the street lamps, their movement was different than a skunk. Their shape and the gleaming eyes reminded me of possum? I really don’t know.  Research time! (Input welcomed!)

Checked with my daughter she is saying possum. Sounds like it was a great idea I turned around. They seem to be a bit aggressive towards canines. Eeek!

Happy Monday all!!  

 ** Happy Almost 2019!!**

 

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

**Photography copyrighted and compliments of K of TheBlackwallblog,

Dec 2018 with Text2pic App for quote

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Out of My Comfort Zone

GPS shows me where to go

Otherwise, it’s two dogs

One cat and me.

Not a familiar place

Nor even a smiling face

Do I recognize.

I search for beauty

Whenever I can,

Such as the glorious blooms

Next door

At a place that looks

Like it could be haunted.

Yet no fear is felt

When I walk by,

Only a soulful peace.

A welcome contrast to my

Inner doubt and turmoil.

Loneliness keeps knocking.

Outwardly you’d not know

Of my tears shed behind

Closed doors.

I keep pushing forward

Thru panic’s swirling fog

And depression’s darkness.

Late day migraines are

Currently my reward.

The mind’s grand tricks

To force my surrender.

My will grows weary,

Yet I push on

Determined.

❤️💃🏻💃🏻❤️

Kind Regards- K

🤗

Photography via K at TheBlackWallBlog Dec 2018.

Boundaries and no answers. 12.16.18

Dealing with changes is challenging no matter what your age.

At 56 after waiting 8 very long years for my son, a vet and I, to find a middle ground, I decided to make that move from NH to NC.

Sadly/gladly, thanks to my daughter, the day we packed the truck for the move, I saw my son for the first time in two years.

He stated, you’ve never came to visit me. Interesting statement considering I had been told his home was off limits.

Trying for a mom hug, the response? “You start any shit and I’ll get in my truck and leave.”

Painful? Hell yes!

Am I still sad? Definitely!

Can I continue to keep my life on hold? No!

He’s angry about life.

I’ve researched, tried at least 20 plus ways to approach him.

It doesn’t work!

I’ve been in NC, barely a week and now I’m getting angry texts. Some random subjects that make zero sense, others make sense but, why now?

He just threatened me with not being in my life if I don’t give a particular item of mine, that I had planned on giving him.

Uhm, hello?

He would have had it the day I moved. Unfortunately in texting with him a few days earlier he informed me he wasn’t going to be there, so I packed it.

Three guesses which box? Honestly, I don’t know.

My dad was a correctional officer in the 1940-50’s. I have his badge. My son followed a similar route, not the same state. Yes, it would be awesome for him to have it.

But he’s accusing me of hiding it from him. Sigh.

So after numerous ugly texts that started last night. Then continued into today.

I blocked him.

Then got physically ill.

😢

He text me a different way.

“You blocked me?”

I didn’t answer.

I’m out of answers.

My son always says-

A MOTHER NEVER GIVES UP!

He’s Right!

I JUST PUT MYSELF IN TIMEOUT!

❤️

“It’s okay to be scared, but you have to get out there, open up, love, make mistakes, learn, be stronger, and start all over again. -Unknown

Kind Regards and

Moving forward- K

😎

Photography compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog 12.18

Shameful Behavior

I am witness

Of what you have done

To her.

Inflicting her heart

With the agonizing pain

Of ten-thousand deaths

With your manipulative

Ways.

Making her life decisions

Without consultation,

Imprisoning her in a world

Of self doubt.

Tempting her with

glimpses and promises

of your love and warmth.

Then yanking them away

Knocking her off her feet.

Time and again.

Never allowing

The dust of comfort

And peace to settle.

You are an idiot

Undeserving of her

Unselfish gifts of

Heart, warmth, caring

And love.

It’s simple.

Passive aggressive

Behavior is your specialty.

A person’s life decisions

Belong to them.

Freedom of choice

Through communication

And collaboration with

Knowledge of all the facts.

The only existing copyright

Of creating circumstances

For blind lifestyle choices

Belong to God and the

universe.

To think all her pain

Was avoidable,

If only you were who

You portrayed yourself

To be.

Unfortunately, the scars

Of your making

Will remain forevermore.

My only hope is

That I have saved her

In time.

As for you,

I know she wishes you

The best

And will always be dumb

Enough to hold a tiny spark

Of hope.

For she is a beautiful

believer in the power

Of good in everyone.

❤️

“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.”-

-Oprah Winfrey

“The one who is meant for you encourages you to be your best, but still loves and accepts you at your worst.” – Unknown

Kind Regards as I help a friend – K

❤️🌎❤️