Good morning all.
19 degrees here in North Carolina! We are extremely lucky considering other parts of the country are experiencing sub-zero temps.
I wanted to share a little something I wrote a few weeks ago. When you endure days with anxiety, panic and depression, you often have to reach deep to find your strength.
Writing brings my inner strength to the forefront of my mind and helps me grab onto the life I deserve! Putting my thoughts on paper, re-enforces the positive and gives me a little extra push, for my continuous journey forward.
Part of #winning is learning what it takes to be your own cheerleader!
Own the Day
‘Own the day or the day could own you.’- Kallie Knight
She was back! The drug, the doctor had prescribed day before yesterday, had taken her to a euphoria buzz, onto fog brain, then about 12 hours later, weakness, severe headache, heart palpitations accompanied by a sore throat.
Thursday had been a waste. She couldn’t sleep. She couldn’t think clearly enough to perform the simple task of washing the dishes.
Damn doctors, she thought. Why can’t they listen? She had told her new primary care physician, that anything he prescribed needed to be the lowest dose then divided by half. Thank heavens she had taken half a pill, 10 mg of the 20 mg prescription.
The drug? ESCITLOPRAM. It was supposed to enhance her mood, work with her current depression med. Now, she knew, when and IF she attempted it again, she was would only take 5mg.
Right now, she had responsibilities. Her dogs, prepping to finally, after a month and a half of living in an interim place, to MOVE! A REAL apartment! The place she would call home.
K smiled as she looked forward to hanging her hat!
YES! Today she would start to move a few things. Luckily, her daughter who currently lived there, had the second bathroom cleaned out. Today, she would pick the items that could fit into that room. Only, fifteen minutes away from her current location it was like the difference from night and day.
Troutman, NC was a slice of heaven! Acres of fields, open space with the bonus of horses and cows, down the road. It was the one place, her whole being felt at home.
FINALLY, she felt HOPEFUL!
Doing the best one can, under any circumstance is what earns a person the title of survivor.
Feeling intense relief, she sipped her morning coffee, and felt exhilarated!
TODAY, SHE OWNED THE DAY!
Compliments of Zen to Zany!!
Kind Regards and #winning – K