Once I Was… and Now I Am…

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Do you remember when you were 13 what you aspired to be when you became an adult? Then between the ages of 16 and 18, we had another vision of our future. I’m thinking  something along the line of “taking over the world.” Serious stuff like that. (smirk) We knew it all! No one could tell us anything. The possibilities were endless. The world was wide open!  Move over because we are here!!! Woo hoo!!

Somewhere between then and our fifties a whole lot of reality took over. We worked jobs we hated because we had families and responsibilities. Single parenthood was hard work but no longer frowned upon. Then, WHAM! in comes the era of the entrepreneur. I am not sure of what percent there is of triumphant individuals. Do you?  I surely  want to hear the numbers are high. Hard work, countless 16 hour days plus. “Do what you love, love what you do.” Is where it is at… I’m thinking “excellent!” How is that going? I am enthralled with success stories. Have one? Please, comment about it. Let us celebrate you together!

So, what is it you dream? Retirement?  Vacation?  Wealth? Peace of mind? Notoriety? Are you still a believer that the world is your oyster? Nasty little buggers, oysters. The thought of slurping oysters on the half shell makes me wear the face of an infant who just got handed his/her first dill pickle!! YEHK! However, give me a  basket of steamers any day. Dipped in melted butter. Super yum! Move over Kentucky fried, steamers and boiled lobster are MY IDEA of “finger licking good!” Oops, sorry, had a Barnacle Billy’s in Perkins cove, Ogunquit, Maine moment. Awesome memory of a yearly tradition from my childhood and still my favorite mini vacation spot.

Through the years people change. Like the saying goes “People change and they  forget to tell you.” It seems to be used in the negative sense. I got divorced because… You know the scenario. Not part of the dream, was it? Yes, people change. I ask you, did they really forget to tell you? Or, did they go thru their metamorphosis right in plain sight and you subconsciously chose not to see it?  Here is an example:

I have a friend. YES, REALLY, I do! He has made some major tweaks and is right in the middle of recreating himself. A life long alcoholic, he chose to stop drinking a few months ago. He has lived with anxiety, panic and depression for a large part of his life. Instead of self medicating he has turned to professional help. He replaced hiding his challenges behind the mask of 150 proof, deflective humor and wit to seek that help. So it was not a tweak but a giant leap! It took him three different hospital visits before someone took him seriously. I find that incredibly sad. He did not give up!! What captures my interest, is those closest to him have yet to acknowledge this new life path he is striving to travel. He reads my blog and I am throwing out a heart felt cheer with pom poms waving: “Big G, little o” Go! Go! Go!

Have you noticed in the last couple of years that we love! love! love! positive quotes. Their popularity is amazing. I see people are sucking them in, posting, tweeting, sharing like never before. They inspire and give us much deserved hope! Our rose colored glasses are not quite so rosy anymore. Been there, done that, got knocked down, stood back up and continued forward to post a quote that makes me feel better about the whole ordeal. Love the concept!! And miraculously it is working!

We are surrounded and taking part with people paying it forward… Having a bad day?  Let me help you by sharing this serene image topped off with a flowing font saying. Read it, savor it, soak it in, pin it to your board. Put it as a FB status! The masses  of all ages are caught up in this movement, this helping each other mind set, is miraculously astounding!  Who would have thought, back when I was going to rule the world, that one day, I could literally inspire people to be happier from wherever I am?

Yes indeed, once I was going to and now I am.

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Childhood

Dear Insomnia

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Thank you Zen to Zany
As Soon as I get some sleep
We are so going to break up.
My eyes are blood shot and my body so weak,
A good night's rest is all that I seek.
I've drank a whole pot of coffee, and 
Still not sure, I can get through the day,
Oh Lord, my shirts on backwards,
How the heck did I get this way?
Even though the dogs are tired,
They're still begging for their treat.
I just wanna snuggle with my pillow
Heck! The suns arriving and I'm already beat.
Today, I have a full schedule, many things to get done
I just found my missing glasses tucked in the freezer.
My eyes are seeing spots and just wont stay open
Should I take the day off? Perhaps, give myself a breather? 

Dear insomnia feel free to get out of my life
All night my mind wouldn't stop, it was doing a race. 
I just tripped over an imaginary bump in the floor
I feel like a klutz and dang! Even my sneakers won't lace.
 

Have you ever experienced this? 
Spent the night, Watched the clock, 
As you go nuts continuously tossing and turning?
When the buzz of the alarm tells you, it's time to get up,
You groan, 'cuz a few ZZZZs is all you're still yearning?

Sounds silly I know, for me to be whining  
And to think as a child I balked at a nap!
Now as an adult with the yawns, I would love one.
Hmmmm, I think I have an idea for Apples next app!





Okay, so I pushed the poetry dos and don'ts 
and even proper English envelope! But if I can't goof 
around with my words, what's the point, what's my purpose of being able to 
write and share your thoughts? One should never stop creating if that is
what they crave and  makes you happy! Make your own path...
Individuality is a large part of what life is all about.  
The irony is I have actually put my glasses in the freezer when I was over tired.
It still makes me chuckle. To this day, whenever I have misplaced something 
that is the first place I look!!  

Enjoy your day!!
 







 

 

Daily post- Purpose

Some days I dance!

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Thank you Zen to Zany!!

Just as the veteran cannot control his flashbacks nor can an individual predict what dreams they will experience at night. A person who lives fighting depression is unable to control the days they feel down. But, the good news is they can try!

Unlike a bad case of the chicken pox, depression is not visible.  I have been told my depression is all in my head. Obviously, if you can’t see it, it cannot exist, right? Wrong!  We are near or next to people each day and have no idea they fight to embrace the positive side of existence.

There are days when I feel like that cartoon character that walks around with the pesky rain cloud overhead. Other days, I awake to find sunshine in my head, heart and soul.

Each day, I struggle to achieve inner peace and true happiness. My tool box filled with tips and tricks of being positive shows wear and tear from years of usage. It isn’t sitting in the corner collecting dust. Every morning, I journal my long list of gratitudes. I work on positive affirmations, listen to upbeat music, play happify.com and push forward through the storm towards the bright light of smiles and feel good moments.

Some days I dance, some days I falter.

Some days I am a circus clown doing a juggling act. Often, I grow weary and tired. Yet, I continue my goal to push through the wall that often seems to block my path to a life of content. Determination and the knowledge that I am a winner keeps me going.

I take the time to see the beauty that is all around me. I do my best to be there for others. Having watched the secret I continuously practice the art of staying open to what the universe can provide.   It is amazing what shows up at your front door when you least expect it. And the timing is always just right. If I had never allowed myself the chance, I never would have witnessed the miracle. Even writing this I can hear the groans of people that don’t believe. It’s okay! I was once a non-believer. All it took was one time and it literally turned my life around.

It is so frustrating when I hit, what I deem to be, a needless bump in the road. It literally took me 3 months the last time I started seeing a new Psychiatrist to prove that I was really working on winning. Unfortunately, there are some that whether knowing it or not undermine their own success. That is not me. I take my anxiety and low dose of depression meds each day as prescribed. Each meeting, I literally handed my bottles to the new psych doctor and asked him to count them, do the math, determined to prove I was a serious about being well. He really seemed surprised that I was so adamant. Finally, one day he looked at me and I could see in his eyes and hear in his voice that he believed in me. It felt wonderful.  I felt the victory!  Ahhh, relief! 🙂

My adult son messaged me one day- “You don’t have it all that bad, there are so many people worse off than you. I have watched you since I was twelve years old, mom. Why can’t you quit living in the past, enjoy the now and be happy?” I responded- “You are correct, I don’t have it all that bad.”  Then he was gone, not waiting for a further explanation. It was okay that he didn’t.  After all, I am his mom and my job is to support him in his journey of life. He doesn’t realize I see a lot of similarities of me in him. I see his struggles and his victories. I am proud!

Many years ago, when my children were very young we had someone close, take their own life. Suicide has never been an option for me. I have seen the impact on the people left behind. I know the questions that will never have answers. It is something that stays with you for the rest of your life.  You remember, but you have to let go and know that there is nothing you can do to change the past. I went to visit the grave and yell at him for being so stupid. In all, I ranted, raved and told him what I thought for over 25 minutes. I didn’t know why at the time, but I HAD TO DO IT!  It took the anguish and anger I was feeling away. That venting was mind and soul freeing and one of the best decisions I have made.  (I haven’t a clue whether or not anyone witnessed it. I am sure if they did they thought I was a nut case!) Oh well!  Smirk.

I truly believe that no matter what we face each day, things will get better!

“The great thing in this world is not so much where you stand, as in what direction you are moving.”– Oliver Wendell Holmes

“There is no royal road to anything. One thing at a time, all things in succession. That which grows fast, withers as rapidly. That which grows slowly, endures.”– Josiah Gilbert Holland

“Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.”– William James

“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.”– Lao Tzu

“You may find the worst enemy or best friend in yourself.”– English Proverb

“Don’t worry about failures, worry about the chances you miss when you don’t even try.”– Jack Canfield

Click below to hear

Matt Kennon – The Call music video- Posted by a veteran who knows

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Kind Regards and #winning – K

Angry

It’s 3am and Coffee time!

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Thank you Zen to Zany!

 

Good morning, I raise my steaming mug of freshly brewed (Drip not Keurig) coffee to you!!

A FB (aka Facebook),  acquaintance posted this: “I’m getting married on the 23 of July, 2016. I know it’s sudden but I didn’t want everyone all up in my business. So please don’t take it personal if you didn’t already know. Seeing it’s right around the corner, I’m not planning a big wedding. I’ll be inviting some family and only a handful of my closest friends. I will be sending out invites soon so I would really appreciate your presence on this day. Please don’t worry about bringing gifts. Just bring someone I can get married to. Let’s see who reads this entire status as I found this hilarious. Copy and paste to your wall and see how many fall for it.”

Of course it made me chuckle so I just had to share it on my FB status. The results?

66 likes and 40 plus comments and counting. My friends obvious love my often “goofy” sense of humor-

You can tell by some of  my favorite comments:

"Glad you haven't lost that beautiful sense of humor"

"Leave it to you K. I am still laughing."

"Congrats, Sis!! Heeeheee"

"Hilarious!"

"I read it & I WAS happy for you even if you are full of it."

"You Brat, lol. You had me going, & I was feeling left out that I did not know about it. 
"You are toooo funny girlfriend; good one!"

"You got me.. So funny.. I'd share it but my family would have a heart attack.."

"I got a few men aged 70 -90 that would enjoy it, ha ha." 

"Oh you silly girl!"

"Thanks for the laugh I needed one and that was a good one."

"Love it!"

"Don't laugh, you might get results! If you want!"

"Holy COW! So happy for you that you didn't ACTUALLY take leave of your senses!!!"

My friends have come to expect the unexpected. Okay, perhaps this wasn’t my funniest to date. But, the results sure made me smile!! I can go for weeks posting positive quotes, pics of the grand kiddos, acting normal… then… I just have to toss in a random, have I got your attention , post? 🙂 Obviously, I have!  hahaha!

What tickles your funny bone? What brings out the silly side of you?

How true this is-

“A good laugh overcomes more difficulties and dissipates more dark clouds than any other one thing.” – Laura Ingalls Wilder

 

 

Kind Regards and still chuckling -K

 

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