Boundaries and no answers. 12.16.18

Dealing with changes is challenging no matter what your age.

At 56 after waiting 8 very long years for my son, a vet and I, to find a middle ground, I decided to make that move from NH to NC.

Sadly/gladly, thanks to my daughter, the day we packed the truck for the move, I saw my son for the first time in two years.

He stated, you’ve never came to visit me. Interesting statement considering I had been told his home was off limits.

Trying for a mom hug, the response? “You start any shit and I’ll get in my truck and leave.”

Painful? Hell yes!

Am I still sad? Definitely!

Can I continue to keep my life on hold? No!

He’s angry about life.

I’ve researched, tried at least 20 plus ways to approach him.

It doesn’t work!

I’ve been in NC, barely a week and now I’m getting angry texts. Some random subjects that make zero sense, others make sense but, why now?

He just threatened me with not being in my life if I don’t give a particular item of mine, that I had planned on giving him.

Uhm, hello?

He would have had it the day I moved. Unfortunately in texting with him a few days earlier he informed me he wasn’t going to be there, so I packed it.

Three guesses which box? Honestly, I don’t know.

My dad was a correctional officer in the 1940-50’s. I have his badge. My son followed a similar route, not the same state. Yes, it would be awesome for him to have it.

But he’s accusing me of hiding it from him. Sigh.

So after numerous ugly texts that started last night. Then continued into today.

I blocked him.

Then got physically ill.

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He text me a different way.

“You blocked me?”

I didn’t answer.

I’m out of answers.

My son always says-

A MOTHER NEVER GIVES UP!

He’s Right!

I JUST PUT MYSELF IN TIMEOUT!

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“Itโ€™s okay to be scared, but you have to get out there, open up, love, make mistakes, learn, be stronger, and start all over again. -Unknown

Kind Regards and

Moving forward- K

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Photography compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog 12.18

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Chiefโ€™s special gift

Yesterday, Mother Nature delivered my beloved husky a special gift.

The beauty of a seasonal first snow fall, complete with, chill you through to the bone, winds.

His favorite season. Often he begs to go out, at least eleven times plus, on a snow day!

He’ll be 13 this Christmas. He’s slowed down quite a bit in the last few months.

Then there are moments like yesterday, when he is filled with puppy like exuberance. Which he pays for with 3 plus hour naps afterwards.

Bittersweet moments these days, as I pack. I’m not sure if the move is going to be too much for him.

He senses my inner struggles, with my past visions of a different scenario, for this move. Which, unfortunately is no longer an option. Not my choice. But one, I have to live with. The only person in my control, is me. ๐Ÿ˜‰

So New England, once again, I shall be leaving in the very near future.

I’ll be back to visit someday.

For now, It’s my time to journey on…

Kind Regards and putting one foot in front of the other- K

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Photography copyrighted and compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog 11.13.2018.

The more clear you are in the vision of what you want in life, the brighter the spotlight will be to lead you on the right path.” – Unknown

Lifeโ€™s questions?

He reached over, whispered, “I’ve loved you for years.”, then kissed her.

A bolt of lightning kiss, sparking electrifying excitement down to her toes.

Chuckling aloud, she looked up from her novel, “What a crock!”, she thought!

Did real romance, true love, really exist, anymore?

Earthshaking kisses?

Lifetime committed relationships?

Best friends, lovers, life partners, open communication, handholding, gazing lovingly into each other’s eyes?

Romantic walks along the beach? Hikes through the woods?

Together, weathering the tough, reveling and embracing the good.

Truth or fiction?

Thinking of the two people who have been by my side for a long time. One, almost twenty years, the other over four. Both, true friends, totally honest. Without games. Always there.

Perhaps, it does exist.

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Kind Regards and #winning – K

Changes 10.29.18

Exciting and scary all at the same time.

My house is being shown this coming weekend.

I’m sorting and boxing up 28 years of my NH life. Getting ready for a change.

Actually, it goes further back if you count the items and memories saved from the sale of my childhood home in early 2000.

Mixed emotions.

Sadness, thankfulness and mindfully staying open to new adventures.

If everything falls into place, a month from now, I shall be living near my youngest granddaughter!

At only 4 1/2, what a delight it will be to be a regular part of her life, instead of flying in every 6 months and FaceTime chats and dinners!

Bittersweet, selfishly wanting both things at once. My home and the freedom to travel to see her every week.

I’ll will keep you posted!

Kind Regards – K

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Great Things are Happening! 10.19.18

Please be patient with me.

I am running a bit behind this week.

There are major “positive” changes happening in my life.

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Often, when times seem bleak and you are feeling lost. Thinking and fretting while wondering what the hell you are going to do? Because things are NOT working….

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The universe opens a door to an opportunity. An opportunity which causes a ripple and suddenly everything is falling into place. Your heart, soul and your mind know, THIS IS THE PATH, you must follow!

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I am, selling my house after 22 years. (Yikes) YES! I have an offer! WOW!

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Packing and preparing to move from NH to NC!

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I will be closer to my littlest granddaughter!

Finally, I will be able to watch her grow!

Lots of glorious G’ma hugs in my future! โค๏ธโ˜€๏ธโค๏ธ

GREAT STUFF!

“The warmth of the rays of glorious sunshine surround me!” ๐ŸŒž

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Kind Regards and thinking of all of you- K

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Momโ€™s America Has Forgotten

Happy Thursday!

Yes, today is K’s Blog recommendation day, I’m working on them. Stay tuned!

BUT FIRST!

In the last year, something I FEARED was true.

Has PROVED to be true!

THE FORGOTTEN MOMS.

That’s right.

WHO are they?

The majority seem to be woman in their 50s.

Educated, smart, witty and funny.

They have raised their children and are now experiencing empty nest syndrome.

In their 20s, 30s and 40s, they kicked ass and beat down the doors so that their daughters could have the same pay as their male co-workers.

Whether it be due to illness, businesses closing or?

They are struggling.

Suddenly, due to their age, they aren’t quick to be employable anymore. (Yup that’s illegal) but still true!

Because, they don’t have children at home nor have a drinking or drug problem…

They are not eligible for most state or federal programs

They can get, possibly, assistance (approximately 10%), in fuel and electric.

I know there ARE some financial programs to help with medical. ONE plus !

Their homes are ALMOST paid for, and they may drive a nice car.

OOPS! sorry, that’s too much value for any type of assistance!

They can get some groceries at the local food bank. TWO in the plus column!

They are too YOUNG, to touch their retirements without a large decrease in the monthly payment plus will experience a 10- 20% tax hit for withdrawing before retirement age.

They have most likely taken care of and buried both parents.

Grandparents are gone.

Their children don’t want them in their home because they still have the “family” pets! Or they just don’t care! (Sad, but true!)

These loving mom’s have helped their children, when they could.

And suddenly,

THEY ARE ALONE!

What’s the answer?

1) Take a 15 dollar an hour cut in pay to work and still not be able to cover their bills?

2) Become alcoholics and drug addicts so they are more likely to be eligible for state federal help?

That’s if they don’t end up living on the street first!

These smart savvy women are selling everything they can.

Researching the internet for passive incomes and praying!

Some are opening their homes and renting rooms.

Hoping they don’t get screwed over by a tenant that doesn’t pay or destroys half their house!

( That last one comes from personal experience! I’m still attempting to fix the damage on a zero budget so I can rent again!)

THEY/WE are fighters!

THEY/WE have HEART!

So America, I ask YOU!

What ARE YOU GOING to do about it?

The CLOCK IS TICKING!

Kind Regards

And kicking & screaming -K

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Thatโ€™s Living!

“Long ago

And oh so far away…”

Sung by the Carpenters

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Sweet cherished

Memories

Live on.

That’s life!

Familiar memories,

Intertwining,

Forging ahead,

Star gazing,

Exploring,

Laughing,

Reveling,

Branching out,

Dancing,

Singing,

Boundary jumping,

Continuing on,

Creating more.

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Kind Regards and sharing moments – K

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Jobs Gone But Iโ€™m Not!

It’s been an excruciating

6 plus months.

I hung in there

But when you start

To get physically ill,

You have to make

A decision!

Can’t stand watching

Others being bullied

Nor do I have the patience

To be needlessly

Jerked right then left.

Forced to be constantly

on guard.

Management through

Fear and belittling

In place of team building.

It’s a sad, pointless

Terribly vicious circle.

I’ve watched over

Half the place jump ship.

I held on, smiled.

Head down, staying focused

Diligently working.

Then…

Well it doesn’t matter now.

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I have a passion!

A deep passion

To help others!

That feeling

washes over me,

As though I’m

Enjoying

A refreshing swim in the

Gentle heat of a

Warm sea of sunlit rays.

Renewing and exhilarating!

2010 changed me.

My bull in the china shop

Mentality ceased to exist.

My preference is

Peaceful harmony.

Of course, I don’t

Live in fantasy- land!

Life has ups, downs,

Lefts, rights, diagonals,

flips and flops!

All can be weathered.

It’s called living!

Things

We must remember,

When “it” hits the fan?

Get tos, gratitude

Taking care of self.

Mindfulness of

Our universal gifts.

Sounds of Nature,

Beautiful deep blue skies,

Gloriously bright

Sunshine above,

And ourself, we must

Show lots of love.

Nutritious food

We can’t ignore.

Stay extra active,

Take long runs or walks.

Make lists of all

Our strengths,

Plans to hang out

With an Ol’ friend.

Concentrate upon

The present moment,

Meditate, feel that light

Grow within.

An opportunity,

To start afresh and new,

A beginning

Not an end.

Clean your space

Take extra care.

Weren’t you always

Too busy?

An awesome time

To hoe, sell or throw.

Two awesome part time

Jobs can equal

That terrible one

For the interim.

Journal, research

Take breaks!

Inhale, fresh country air!

Relax

Those shoulders!

It’s a

A mini stay-cation!

Kind Regards and

Counting my pennies &

Remembering who I am- K

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How We Treat Others

In your journey of life

What is your aspiration?

To assemble or

Dismantle?

Build up or

Knock down?

A selfish person

Will attempt to

Demoralize with

Sharp tongued negativity.

A giving individual

Shows respect

Speaking

With sweet motivation,

Encouragement and

positivity.

So I ask,

What is your aspiration?

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Kind Regards and hugs – K

Featured Blogs Discovered 7.5.18

Here comes the sun!
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An awesome week filled with, Learning, smiling, interaction and making new friends! It’s was tough to choose only a few!

Enjoy!

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Kind Regards and relishing the moment – K

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6 word story challenge 7.3.18

Today’s 6 word story challenge topic – Holstein

“Holsteins grazing quietly in the field.”

“Life simplified in black and white.”

Give it a try!

Feel free to share your link or comment on my page!

I’m still practicing!

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Kind Regards

and looking

forward to

your creativity – K

Photography compliments of BGage photography 7.2018

Sometimes I Act Like an Idiot

Found this quote today-

“Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will.” – Unknown

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A childhood core belief-

From an experience,

Buried deep,

Appears-

When I am hurt.

It triggers-

An old whisper,

“For survival,

You MUST fight back!”

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As a so called adult

In my heart

I know, the truth,

Happiness comes from

Within.

Lashing out,

Accomplishes nothing!

It merely adds

Guilty feelings

To my pain,

Thus, I feel worse!

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Happiness comes from

Within.

My joy grows

When I inspire,

Boost, cheer,

Lend a helping hand

Or listening ear.

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My happiness

Is within my own

Soul.

A soul brimming

With golden sunshine,

Kindness and caring.

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Why do I digress?

Panic?

Tailspin?

Into a realm of ugly

Retorts?

Because I have

Some work to do.

Face the inner negativity,

Define, recognize and

Acknowledge it.

Then I can be free!

Hard work!

I’ll start right now!

Why?

Past ghosts

Have no place

In the person

I’ve become!

Today,

I start the journey

Towards another

lifetime Win!

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Just remember

You CAN

Break the cycle,

True happiness

Comes NOT from others,

Happiness comes from

Within.

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Kind Regards and

believing in me,

believing in you – K

Featured Friday Blogs

The skies the limit!

Blogs I enjoy!

Please, drop in and tell

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Kind Regards and Happy Friday – K