After the Rooster Crows 2.6.2019

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Good morning.

Happy Wednesday!

According to Siri, my I-phone, Troutman, NC should have a temperature 

Around 70 degrees today! yahoo!

 

Do you have a morning routine?

I do.

Start the coffee, walk the dogs, feed the fur children, Marbre’, my cat, then my beloved canines, Chief and Abby.

Pour a cup of coffee.

Pop open the computer, a fresh word doc and type or grab a pen, my journal and write.

There is something about putting pen to paper, I find calming and soothing.

Early Morning Journaling

My scrawled words

Enrich the paper

Wtih sentiments, thoughts and wishes.

From dreams, to logging life’s events.

Whether fond memories, frustration or woes.

Releasing all upon a blank sheet,

Creates an inner harmony 

 No other early morning

 Activity can beat.

Writing or typing allows me 

An opportunity to

 Makes sense of some,

Chuckle at others,

Or allows me, to set free

Any negativity from yesterday. 

A clean slate, 

Enables my heart,

My soul, my mind

To open, be trusting, 

And accept 

All the possiblities,

And potential,

Of a fresh, new day!

 

 I am thinking of creating a journal with a large variety of life’s pictures, from a group of friends photos scattered throughout. The clicks can be used for writing exercises or for the viewing pleasure of the person who still journals. What do you think?

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Own the Day! 1.31.2019

 

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Good morning all. 

 19 degrees here in North Carolina! We are extremely lucky considering other parts of the country are experiencing sub-zero temps. 

I wanted to share a little something I wrote a few weeks ago. When you endure days with anxiety, panic and depression, you often have to reach deep to find your strength.

Writing brings my inner strength to the forefront of my mind and helps me  grab onto the life I deserve! Putting my thoughts on paper, re-enforces the positive and gives me a little extra push, for my continuous journey forward.

Part of #winning is learning what it takes to be your own cheerleader!

 

Own the Day

‘Own the day or the day could own you.’- Kallie Knight

She was back! The drug, the doctor had prescribed day before yesterday, had taken her to a euphoria buzz, onto fog brain, then about 12 hours later, weakness, severe headache, heart palpitations accompanied by a sore throat.

Thursday had been a waste.  She couldn’t sleep. She couldn’t think clearly enough to perform the simple task of washing the dishes.

Damn doctors, she thought. Why can’t they listen? She had told her new primary care physician, that anything he prescribed needed to be the lowest dose then divided by half.  Thank heavens she had taken half a pill, 10 mg of the 20 mg prescription.

The drug? ESCITLOPRAM. It was supposed to enhance her mood, work with her current depression med. Now, she knew, when and IF she attempted it again, she was would only take 5mg.

Right now, she had responsibilities. Her dogs, prepping to finally, after a month and a half of living in an interim place, to MOVE! A REAL apartment!  The place she would call home.

K smiled as she  looked forward to hanging her hat!

YES! Today she would start to move a few things.  Luckily, her daughter who currently lived there, had the second bathroom cleaned out. Today, she would pick the items that could fit into that room. Only, fifteen minutes away from her current location it was like the difference from night and day.

Troutman, NC was a slice of heaven! Acres of fields, open space with the bonus of horses and cows, down the road. It was the one place, her whole being felt at home.

 

 

FINALLY, she felt HOPEFUL!

Doing the best one can, under any circumstance is what earns a person the title of survivor.

Feeling intense relief, she sipped her morning coffee, and felt exhilarated!

She KNEW-

TODAY, SHE OWNED THE DAY!

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Compliments of Zen to Zany!!

 

Kind Regards and #winning – K

 

Boundaries and no answers. 12.16.18

Dealing with changes is challenging no matter what your age.

At 56 after waiting 8 very long years for my son, a vet and I, to find a middle ground, I decided to make that move from NH to NC.

Sadly/gladly, thanks to my daughter, the day we packed the truck for the move, I saw my son for the first time in two years.

He stated, you’ve never came to visit me. Interesting statement considering I had been told his home was off limits.

Trying for a mom hug, the response? “You start any shit and I’ll get in my truck and leave.”

Painful? Hell yes!

Am I still sad? Definitely!

Can I continue to keep my life on hold? No!

He’s angry about life.

I’ve researched, tried at least 20 plus ways to approach him.

It doesn’t work!

I’ve been in NC, barely a week and now I’m getting angry texts. Some random subjects that make zero sense, others make sense but, why now?

He just threatened me with not being in my life if I don’t give a particular item of mine, that I had planned on giving him.

Uhm, hello?

He would have had it the day I moved. Unfortunately in texting with him a few days earlier he informed me he wasn’t going to be there, so I packed it.

Three guesses which box? Honestly, I don’t know.

My dad was a correctional officer in the 1940-50’s. I have his badge. My son followed a similar route, not the same state. Yes, it would be awesome for him to have it.

But he’s accusing me of hiding it from him. Sigh.

So after numerous ugly texts that started last night. Then continued into today.

I blocked him.

Then got physically ill.

😢

He text me a different way.

“You blocked me?”

I didn’t answer.

I’m out of answers.

My son always says-

A MOTHER NEVER GIVES UP!

He’s Right!

I JUST PUT MYSELF IN TIMEOUT!

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“It’s okay to be scared, but you have to get out there, open up, love, make mistakes, learn, be stronger, and start all over again. -Unknown

Kind Regards and

Moving forward- K

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Photography compliments of K of TheBlackWallBlog 12.18

Shameful Behavior

I am witness

Of what you have done

To her.

Inflicting her heart

With the agonizing pain

Of ten-thousand deaths

With your manipulative

Ways.

Making her life decisions

Without consultation,

Imprisoning her in a world

Of self doubt.

Tempting her with

glimpses and promises

of your love and warmth.

Then yanking them away

Knocking her off her feet.

Time and again.

Never allowing

The dust of comfort

And peace to settle.

You are an idiot

Undeserving of her

Unselfish gifts of

Heart, warmth, caring

And love.

It’s simple.

Passive aggressive

Behavior is your specialty.

A person’s life decisions

Belong to them.

Freedom of choice

Through communication

And collaboration with

Knowledge of all the facts.

The only existing copyright

Of creating circumstances

For blind lifestyle choices

Belong to God and the

universe.

To think all her pain

Was avoidable,

If only you were who

You portrayed yourself

To be.

Unfortunately, the scars

Of your making

Will remain forevermore.

My only hope is

That I have saved her

In time.

As for you,

I know she wishes you

The best

And will always be dumb

Enough to hold a tiny spark

Of hope.

For she is a beautiful

believer in the power

Of good in everyone.

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“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.”-

-Oprah Winfrey

The one who is meant for you encourages you to be your best, but still loves and accepts you at your worst.” – Unknown

Kind Regards as I help a friend – K

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Can You Hear Me? 9.20.18

Last week was

National Suicide Prevention Week.

So many people

On numerous social sites,

Posted their support,

The hot lines.

Did you absorb

What it’s truly about?

Did you actually read

And understand the signs?

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Can you hear me

Begging for help

By my silence?

Did you notice

I’m keeping to myself

These days?

Have you seen a dullness

That replaced a sparkle

In my eyes?

Have you wondered

About my flash anger

When there’s nothing

For me to be mad about?

Can you tell

By my hollowed cheeks

And clothing grown too big,

That I’ve lost my appetite?

Can you hear the silence,

Since I stopped answering

my phone?

Have you noticed

Dirty coffee mugs

In my sink,

Piled higher each day?

Do you see

The unopened bills

Stacked higher, on

The kitchen table?

You say I’m so strong.

Can work thru anything.

Yes, once I was!

I’ve searched

For my strength,

It’s disappeared.

Can you hear me?

The dogs can.

No worries,

They’ll alert the neighbors

Once I’m gone.

Will you look back,

And hear me then?

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Make sure you know

What to look for,

take notice of your

Friends and family.

If their is an

Unexplained behavioral

Change.

Don’t just chalk it up,

To your knowledge

There has been

” a little” extra stress

In their life.

In a calm manner,

Ask questions.

Remember, just because

They’ve weathered tough

times before, doesn’t mean

this time it’s the same.

Everything maybe okay!

They may just be stumbling

Right now.

But if you don’t ask

The questions

How will you know

For sure?

Kind Regards and hugs – K

❤️🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾🐾☀️

That’s Living!

“Long ago

And oh so far away…”

Sung by the Carpenters

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Sweet cherished

Memories

Live on.

That’s life!

Familiar memories,

Intertwining,

Forging ahead,

Star gazing,

Exploring,

Laughing,

Reveling,

Branching out,

Dancing,

Singing,

Boundary jumping,

Continuing on,

Creating more.

❤️😘❤️

Kind Regards and sharing moments – K

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☀️Photography copyrighted and compliments of BGage.

Jobs Gone But I’m Not!

It’s been an excruciating

6 plus months.

I hung in there

But when you start

To get physically ill,

You have to make

A decision!

Can’t stand watching

Others being bullied

Nor do I have the patience

To be needlessly

Jerked right then left.

Forced to be constantly

on guard.

Management through

Fear and belittling

In place of team building.

It’s a sad, pointless

Terribly vicious circle.

I’ve watched over

Half the place jump ship.

I held on, smiled.

Head down, staying focused

Diligently working.

Then…

Well it doesn’t matter now.

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I have a passion!

A deep passion

To help others!

That feeling

washes over me,

As though I’m

Enjoying

A refreshing swim in the

Gentle heat of a

Warm sea of sunlit rays.

Renewing and exhilarating!

2010 changed me.

My bull in the china shop

Mentality ceased to exist.

My preference is

Peaceful harmony.

Of course, I don’t

Live in fantasy- land!

Life has ups, downs,

Lefts, rights, diagonals,

flips and flops!

All can be weathered.

It’s called living!

Things

We must remember,

When “it” hits the fan?

Get tos, gratitude

Taking care of self.

Mindfulness of

Our universal gifts.

Sounds of Nature,

Beautiful deep blue skies,

Gloriously bright

Sunshine above,

And ourself, we must

Show lots of love.

Nutritious food

We can’t ignore.

Stay extra active,

Take long runs or walks.

Make lists of all

Our strengths,

Plans to hang out

With an Ol’ friend.

Concentrate upon

The present moment,

Meditate, feel that light

Grow within.

An opportunity,

To start afresh and new,

A beginning

Not an end.

Clean your space

Take extra care.

Weren’t you always

Too busy?

An awesome time

To hoe, sell or throw.

Two awesome part time

Jobs can equal

That terrible one

For the interim.

Journal, research

Take breaks!

Inhale, fresh country air!

Relax

Those shoulders!

It’s a

A mini stay-cation!

Kind Regards and

Counting my pennies &

Remembering who I am- K

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How We Treat Others

In your journey of life

What is your aspiration?

To assemble or

Dismantle?

Build up or

Knock down?

A selfish person

Will attempt to

Demoralize with

Sharp tongued negativity.

A giving individual

Shows respect

Speaking

With sweet motivation,

Encouragement and

positivity.

So I ask,

What is your aspiration?

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Kind Regards and hugs – K

The Journey is Not Always as it Seems! Reblog

Reblog that truly hits home!
Such a courageous man to share his story.
I watched my mom, a schoolteacher of 47 years go through dementia to full blown Alzheimer’s.
❤️🌎❤️ Bravo Brian!

Alzheimer's: The Journey

Being today is the last Friday in June, also the last Friday of Alzheimer’s and Brain Awareness Month, I knew I wanted to write about something but I didn’t know what that “something” was going to be. A trip to the grocery store today gave me my inspiration.

For those of you who may not know, I now live alone in an apartment. Although I still have a drivers license, I don’t have a vehicle for I can’t afford one (insurance, gas, maintenance, etc) so I found an apartment complex that is within walking distance to everything I need.

When I got up this morning, my intention was to head to Winn Dixie for I needed a few things, however, my brain had other plans and the fog rolled in. (For those of you who don’t know what I’m talking about, you may want to see one of my earlier…

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Sometimes I Act Like an Idiot

Found this quote today-

“Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will.” – Unknown

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A childhood core belief-

From an experience,

Buried deep,

Appears-

When I am hurt.

It triggers-

An old whisper,

“For survival,

You MUST fight back!”

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As a so called adult

In my heart

I know, the truth,

Happiness comes from

Within.

Lashing out,

Accomplishes nothing!

It merely adds

Guilty feelings

To my pain,

Thus, I feel worse!

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Happiness comes from

Within.

My joy grows

When I inspire,

Boost, cheer,

Lend a helping hand

Or listening ear.

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My happiness

Is within my own

Soul.

A soul brimming

With golden sunshine,

Kindness and caring.

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Why do I digress?

Panic?

Tailspin?

Into a realm of ugly

Retorts?

Because I have

Some work to do.

Face the inner negativity,

Define, recognize and

Acknowledge it.

Then I can be free!

Hard work!

I’ll start right now!

Why?

Past ghosts

Have no place

In the person

I’ve become!

Today,

I start the journey

Towards another

lifetime Win!

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Just remember

You CAN

Break the cycle,

True happiness

Comes NOT from others,

Happiness comes from

Within.

☀️❤️☀️

Kind Regards and

believing in me,

believing in you – K

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empath fatigue

https://fierykaleidoscope.wordpress.com/2018/06/06/empath-fatigue/
— Read on fierykaleidoscope.wordpress.com/2018/06/06/empath-fatigue/

A wonderfully fantastic overview and explanation of how an empath feels the world around them!

It was a MUST REBLOG!

Superb for those of us that live the life of one AND for the people who have an Empath in their life! ❤️

Abby’s Home!

So scary,

To have one of my

Beloved fur children

In a life threatening

Situation.

At first it seemed,

Possible dehydration,

From a very humid day.

Not being spoiled,

I leave the Air conditioner

On for them on hot days.

Friday, I didn’t.

Little dog, aka Abby

Was not herself.

Usually 16 lbs of

Bursting energy!

She gives 89 lb Chief,

A run for his money.

Yet, she adores him.

They have been the big n small duo for 10 years!

Not, this last weekend,

She became lethargic.

I fed her Apple 🍎 sauce.

Put a bowl of water by her.

Sunday morning, when we,

Awoke, her hind legs had stopped working!

WHAT?

HELP!

Was it the new flea and

Tick solution?

I called the vet at 6am.

Two excruciating hours

Later, I met her and a tech

At the animal hospital.

May we X-ray?

YES!!

She had an infected uterus and 3 vertebrae that seemed to be too close together.

Emergency surgery was needed.

Over 1k!

I looked as those beautiful eyes, so full of life, love and trust.

I heard the words 50/50 chance of survival!

YES! DO IT!

Just over 2 hours later I got the call.

She made it through!

Unfortunately, her hind quarters still did not work.

The good news, there was still time.

Not to worry yet!

It was 11 am.

4 pm

The vet called, she had taken Abby out to sit in the grass. The air, fresh gentle breeze, was enjoyed!

Still no walking! But we were making headway!

Monday, 8 am, I called.

Abby had taken a few

steps!!

❤️💕❤️

Determined lil’ bugger!

That’s my Abby!

Monday 430 pm

I picked her up from

The vets!

She had been walking!

She practically leaped out of the Vet tech’s arms!

Me? I was glowing!

Proud fur momma!

My little girl!

We headed home!

My heart was

Full and it was singing!

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Kind Regards and feeling the love – K

Another Get to Day

A “GET To” day!

Today

I get to enjoy the sun!

I get to sing a song!

I get to wash the dishes!

Not that that’s

One of my favorite wishes!

😁

Yes!

A silly little ditty!

But often when you’re

Feeling slightly down,

You’ve got to find a way

To turn yourself around!

A Snowball flower!

Kind Regards and

Being a bit silly – K

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Photography by BGage 5/2018.

As the Mind Races

This is from An interesting class

I took in 2010:

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Shhhh

Let me close my eyes

For just a little while.

Take away the ever rush

Of should be, could be, was.

I want to envision

Endless fields

Of Colorful wildflowers,

Skies of blue and

Imagine the peace

Warmth and comfort

Lying in your arms

Embraced in a

Love forever true.

Just give me precious

Moments of peace and rest.

Shhh Slow gentle breathing

As I visualize

Long strolling walks

Through the woods or

Along the sandy shore.

Sounds of laughter and

chuckles

As we share life’s thoughts.

Stop this craziness.

Take me back there

Just once more.

As I lay my cheek upon

the coolness of your

Newly carved stone.

Allow me to steal

Another precious few

Then I’ll head home,

To start my life anew.

❤️

The idea of the class was to actually have a funeral for something or someone who made you sad.

I thought they were, dare I say nuts? Bananas?

Amazingly, this odd but simple exercise actually works for some of us!

Kind Regards and letting go of things – K

❤️🌷☀️

Today’s a Good Day to

Remember,

Write it down,

Read it,

Read it AGAIN,

⭐️

You are strong!

Yes I am!

⭐️

You are loved!

Yes I am!

⭐️

You are caring!

Yes I am!

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You are worth it!

Yes I am!

⭐️

You are successful!

Yes I am!

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You deserve the best!

Yes I do!

⭐️

You are winning!

Hot damn!

Yes I am!

❤️🌎❤️

“Ability is what you’re capable of doing.

Motivation determines what you do.

Attitude determines how well you do it.”

-Lou Holtz

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Kind Regards and right here with you – K

Photography by K of TheBlackwallblog.