Did You Really Know Me?

When you were sick

With cancer

And going through

Treatments

I was beyond scared.

To your face

I smiled.

We celebrated

When radiation

And chemo

Were done.

A year passed

We celebrated!!

Still cancer free!

But there was a distance,

Quietly, I felt it form.

It was then

YOU decided,

As you often did,

Though usually

You just disappeared

Without a warning.

For days, for weeks

To do your thing.

Sometimes you’d

Climb in a bottle.

Now you’re sober

Over a year.

Sometimes you were

Depressed.

And needed time

To work it through,

Yourself.

This time it was different.

You told me

With your type of cancer

The odds were

Within ten years

You’d be gone.

So you wanted

To do your own thing.

I laughed…

Because I couldn’t

Recall a time

When you weren’t

Doing your own thing.

When YOU wanted.

And now your gone.

It’s rather like

You’ve passed on.

Sadly, madly,

Because of experience

I know the difference.

I can’t find comfort

In looking up

And talking to you.

Knowing

My best friend,

Who I shared hopes

And dreams,

Silliness and

Plaza ice creams,

Is out there.

I don’t think

You realize

It’s not that

I don’t understand

Nor might not want

The same, myself.

It’s all these years

Not once.

Not Even ONCE!

Did you ever

Take the time

To listen.

I asked for one thing.

Just ONE thing.

Not money,

Not the errands

Not the dinners

You cooked

So wonderfully.

I asked for your

Arms around me,

When I fell asleep

At night.

That’s ALL I ever wanted.

You freely offered

Everything you

“Thought” I needed.

I AM extremely grateful.

So many women

Want so much.

Materialistic things,

New cars

A man to pay their bills,

Etc.

Where as I

Being an independent

Spirit myself,

Understand

The need for freedom.

If you look back

You might recall

What were the

Times

Insomnia didn’t

Bother me at all?

Sadly, I wonder

Did you ever

Really know me?

For I knew you.

“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

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Kind Regards

And doing the work – K

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The Gavel’s Decision

“GUILTY!” States the Judge!

“Of what? ” I ask?

He replies, “It’s an extensive list!”

“Please tell me!”, I plead.

“Remember, YOU asked”,the Judge retorts and continues .

“On this day, let it be known that:”

“You love him too much.”

“You accepted unacceptable terms.”

“You walked into a relationship with the odds against you.”

“A couple needs the freedom, to be there for each other.”

“Equality in spending quality time, at your house, or his house. You DID NOT have that.”

“Without the above, you lose a precious gift. The opportunity to truly show your love, be there and support each other through all kinds of things, on an even playing field.”

“Due to yours being one sided, your house open, his being off limits, your giving nature was stifled.”

But I thought it would be only for a short time and all would work out!”, I intervened.

“Even true love has it’s limits, young lady.” “Over 2 years of being reigned in, will take it’s toll”, Said the Judge

“So what now?”, I asked

“Look at this picture, what do you see?”, he asked

“A beautiful reflection in the slow moving water of a blue sky, white clouds, and the trees along the shore” said I

“Exactly!”, The Judge nodded in agreement.

“You are those trees, standing tall, reaching for the sun, stuck in one place, as the river continues on”, replied the Judge.

“Now look at this picture and tell me what you see”

A vibrant colored sky, the sun’s rays free to spread their light across the sky, the horizon.” Said I

The Judge asked, ” Which one represents you?”

I started to cry, my heart felt heavy, as though someone had placed a ton of bricks on my chest.

Which one did I choose?

Kind Regards – K

Photography copyrighted and compliments of BGage.

Guilty

Through the pollen

Attempting to peer

Through Yellow Haze.

Eyes itching.

Chest heaving

Nostrils dripping

Tissues swiping

Shoes weighing

Body off balance

Sluggish thinking…

THEN:

Skies darken

Spring drizzles

Water-drops drenching

Tree branches dancing

Winds swirling

Quietly, dark clouds

Rolling onward…

Birds singing

Blue skies peeking

Shoulders lifting

Ahhhh, cleansing breaths

Clippity Clopping

Skipping flip flops!

HELLO! Clarity!

A small price

We’re paying.

Nature’s miracles

In Northern New England.

Kind Regards

and enjoying May – K

☀️Photography compliments and copyrighted by BGage and K of TheBlackWallBlog

May 2018

Place in the World

My backyard 4/2018

Quick click, bumpity bump!

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A beautiful Thursday!

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Picnic tables all in a row

What can you see as a mode of transportation in this click?

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Found my missing ladder!

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Playful silhouettes!

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Proof of Spring’s arrival!

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View from the John Deere tractor. First time mowing in 2018!

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My yearly Holly berry that awaits for me to rake so that it can brightly say Surprise! 🤣

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Look!! Another surprise awaits to be discovered.

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What’s happening in your backyard?

We would love it if you would share with us!

By quote, pic or prose your choice!

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Kind Regards and wishing you all a Happy Spring -K

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Photography compliments of BGage, K of TheBlackWallBlog and ADierks. Copyrighted 2018

Awakening

Cees FFC Challenge 4.22.18 -Free and Easy

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Free books –

Take one,

Leave one.

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Out For Breakfast at

A Local Mom & Pop

Store – Emma’s

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Out and about visiting the many covered Bridges in our area.

This one located in

Cilleyville, NH 😆

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Tom, Strutting his stuff!

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A plane that turns with the direction of the wind.

East Andover, NH

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The Ducks are back!

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Ok you turkeys…

Remember, look both ways before you cross the road.

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Taking flight!

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Riding in the sunshine!

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We adore Cee’s photography challenges!

Have you tried one?

Cee’s Photography Link

Kind Regards -K & friends

Photography copyrighted and compliments of BGage & DeterminedSupersnail & K of TheBlackWallBlog.

My Backyard 4/7/2018

Spring hasn’t sprung yet,

in Northern New England.

But she’s a coming!

BGage has been out and about looking.

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Earlier this week

Oopsee, another snow squall yesterday!

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Someone else is out checking the weather, too!

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Have you tried one of Cee’s

Photography challenges?

You truly need to check out the beautiful clicks there!

#SYW

This time we did

” Share Your World”

From our backyard to yours! 🌹

What was or is your favorite cartoon?

Scooby Doo!

Which cooking utensil (other than the usual pots and pans etc) would you miss the most?

My new zester!

Would you dare to sleep in haunted house overnight?

HECK NO!

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  

Some silly jokes from work! 😆😆 And that fat squirrel near my front porch!

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Kind Regards -K

Photography compliments and copyrighted by BGage 2018.

Good Job!

Positive affirmations!

Do we hand out enough?

Do we receive enough?

From others?

From ourselves?

Way to go!

Great job!

Good for you!

Excellent!

A++++

It’s a work in progress for some of us.

I love to give out pat on the backs to others.

Cheer them on!

Woot! Woot!

That was easy.

I had to “learn” to give them to myself!

So today, if you haven’t-

Learn to hand out compliments!

Learn positive self talk!

You are?

Fabulous!

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Darn that feels good!

Great!

Wonderful!

There is a lil’ journaling

I often do with my morning

Thoughts.

Okay, K

How many positive words can you scribble in the next 30 seconds…

GO!

😁

Write 10 positive words.

GO!

Going to try it?

Good for you!

😉

#winning!

Kind Regards and knowing you are fantastic! -K

“Cee’s Which Way Challenge” March 2018

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Springfield, VT

headed to NH

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Winter thaw, Mt Holly, Vt

2018

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Covered Bridge, Mt Holly

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Belmont, VT

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Driving in a lil’ snow storm

Holden Hill, Langdon, NH

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Rt 12, heading home, Charlestown, NH

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Entrance to a

Tree Farm, Mt Holly, VT

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Porcupine’s path

from underneath

the camp in

Mt Holly, VT

Really! 🐾

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Route 11, Springfield, VT

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“The” Boat landing,

Bellows Falls, VT

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Williams River,

Rockingham, VT

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Bubbling brook,

My Holly, VT

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Kind Regards

from Our travels

in Northern New England,

USA

-K

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Photography compliments of BGage &

K of TheBlackWallBlog.

Peaceful Places

Singing ” These are a few of my favorite things….”

My Head In the clouds

Watching the Sunset

Snuggled under the covers,

Relaxing with my dogs.

Here is my “littlest” – Abby

In my kitchen cooking.

This time it’s stuffed poblano peppers! Yummm!

Visiting one of our local

Sap boiling places.

Yes!

They are making Maple Syrup!

Walking in the woods

In Fall

Kind Regards and ready for Spring- K

#winning

Photography copyrighted & compliments of BGage and K of TheBlackWallBlog.

Favorite Place

I’d Rather Be….

Cruising down back country roads…

Just to

See what we can see,

Looking for fun clicks

With my buddy BGage

Making up silly songs

As we putt putt along.

“Drippity doo da…”

Enjoying some birthday

Cake with my daughter

In NC!

She sent me a pic

Hilarious!

It’s pic 17 of 17

Sent to me on 3/17!

As I’m sipping hot coffee

On this brisk

Sunday morning.

Looking over clicks

And journaling.

The truth is,

As my mind wanders

I can be wherever

I choose to be!

Kind Regards and

#winning -K

I’d Rather Be…

Mother Nature’s Mid-February NH Gift

Well, you know who saw his shadow. Six more weeks of winter!

Mother Nature played along!

I awoke to find her gift…

Looking out my front door.

Looking out my windshield, while warming up the Jeep.

Stratton Mtn way in the background.

Snowplow scraping the snow and ice from the road.

Route 12 headed downtown.

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Morning snowflakes

Freshen the look

Of trees, roadways

And the backyard brook.

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Kind Regards and looking forward to spring -K

Tour Guide

Present

Just ‘round the corner.

Just ‘round the corner

You will find yourself.

You’ve been there all along.

Waiting for you to realize

You are wonderfully loved and

Known to be so kind.

Exquisitely unique and perfect,

Just the way you are. ❤️

 

CB&W BADGE

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CORNER, B&W

One of Cee’s latest challenges!

 

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Kind Regard and not cutting corners – K 😎😄

Photography compliments and copyrighted by BGage and K of TheBlackWallBlog.

Trademark of New England’s Fall

White birch baseline the communities of pumpkin orange shades, deep burgundy reds, evergreen groves, while mixed copper and chestnut browns are enhanced by splashes of  the faded yellows and limes that quilt the New England mountainsides.

Thursday morning coffee word-play. 

 
Kind Regards – K 

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Find a typo let me know! 
Photography copyrighted and compliments of BGage 2017
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