Happy Tuesday morning!
How is everyone doing?
As most of you know, I am on the the second to last leg of withdrawing off prescription Xanax. Not due to abuse, but due to moving to a new state and struggling to find a doctor that will continue the same anxiety regimen I have been on for the last 20 years.
My next doctors visit will be April 10th and I only have .75 of Lorazepam to go. My current drop has been 1.50 broken into 2 weeks drop of .75 each.
It has not been a fun one. Good ol’ anxiety has reared it’s head. Not an old friend I am welcoming with open arms. Grrrr!
I was chatting with my daughter on the phone yesterday, complaining about the current state of anxiousness. She said, “Good! Don’t like it, this is a chance for you to change it.”
At first I was a bit taken aback.
Then the more I thought about it. I realized, SHE WAS RIGHT!
I was NOT going to allow this anxiety to get the best of me! This was not a new path. The battle of wits between this old enemy of mine has been going on and off for years. I was NOT going to lay down and take it!
Realistically, I was smart enough to know that I needed a good nights rest, and it would be good to hit it head on in the morning. I watched some television and headed to bed.
I arose this morning, took a shower. The whole time practicing positive self talk. Along with my self talk, I envisioned a positive outcome. This was something I learned and practiced a long time ago.
I thought, why not give it a try, again?
Today’s battle? To be able to drive to the grocery store!
It may not sound like a big deal, but, anxiety can be a sneaky bugger and talk you out of all kinds of things. Especially, when you have to go a few weeks not driving due to withdrawals.
The outcome?
Winner, winner, chicken, dinner! I just arrived home, with a few groceries.
#winning!
Remember to always celebrate the seemingly little things! You deserve it!
Kind Regards and hugs – K
PS- A shout out thank you goes to my daughter! I love it when she pushes me! Love you honey! xxooxxoo
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